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wees!..

2005-10-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

7th Oct' 2005, Friday

sch still alrites.. hee.. ermmm.. wells.. left sch at ard 7pm..
headed home.. then bath & changed.. (:
wells.. then went out for movies with sis, Yiya, Jesslin & Pauline..
we watched "Into The Blue".. it's quite a nice show.. (:
ermmms.. actually sis wanna watch "skeleton key"..
but Pauline they all cant go home so early tt day..
after show went home.. reach home at abt 3am like tt.. so tired!..

before heading home.. quarreled with sis.. damn..
she's unreasonable to the max mans..
was really angry, pissed off & disappointed by her attitude..
why cant she understands me?.. shit!..
i've been givning in to her so many times..
she's so hard to please!.. not once did she give in to me..

8th Oct' 2005, Saturday

slept till 8am like tt.. hee..
Jesslin called me cos i told her give me morning call..
but i din answer at all.. because ma hp is in the living rm..
went to sch for sci lesson.. (:
Mrs Ooi is such a good teacher.. i like her lots man..
nono.. i mean her teachings la.. (:
went home after school.. was caught in rain..
am so cold mans.. ):
ermmms.. went out to study with Pat Eng, Yee Kit & Mj as well..
supposing shld go KAP but went to beauty mac.. cos KAP damn packed..

studied till ard 6.20pm then i left.. (:
met sis in town for "40 yrs old virgin" tt show..
bought the tickets already at midnight like tt at cine before watching "Into The Blue"..
wells.. "40 yrs old virgin" is so funny!.. it's a nice show lei!.. (:
ermmm.. it's the show just for ma day..
i need a laugh on that day mans.. so ya..

Jovi smsed me.. was shocked!.. hee.. she's funny la..
Jovi's 1st sms when i'm in cinema, "what are u doing now? shopping?"
ma reply, "sorry for late reply, i'm in town with ma sis, we're in the cinema now, catching "40 yrs old virgin".. it's really funny.. just the right show for ma day as i need a laugh.. hee.."
Jovi's 2nd sms, "its ok no prob. let me know if it's nice."
ma 2nd reply, "it's really nice.. i think u might wanna catch it with ur friends.. hee.. i hope u taken ur dinner.. (:"
Jovi's 3rd reply, "Yeah taken. Lately having gastric, flu & tummy ache. :-( think i'm not used to weather in sg. i get sick easily."
ma 3rd reply, "are u alrites?.. better ta lotsa care of urself.. go see doc soon, alrights?.. rest more ya?.. the show just ended.. (: anyways, where are u now?.."
waitied for Jovi's reply but in the end she din.. think she's too busy bahs.. ):

wells.. kinda quarrelled with sis again..
dunno la.. just cant stand her.. she's like not the usual her..
she tends to get easily angry over small things?..
it's like she had changed alot!.. tt sucks so much!.. *arghs*
i smsed with Jesslin.. till she told me to grab smt to eat then i eat..
i din really have the appetite at all.. was having grastic the whole day..
however still bearable.. *smiles*

reached home & bath.. then after tt i turned in.. (:
was waiting for Jesslin's reply.. really cant ta it le.. then i told her i'm turning in..
wells.. slept alone in the rm.. sis slept with mum..
bro slept in his own rm & dad slept in living rm..

9th Oct' 2005, Sunday

woke up at abt 10 plus in the morning.. but am still so tired..
read Jesslin's sms.. aha!.. she's funny.. tt silly girl..
the way she replied really make me put on a smile for the day..
she woke up damn early mans to study.. *good girl*
ermmm.. mum bought nasi lemak for me.. (:
then i ate it.. rest awhile & went out with sis & mum..
mum wanna go temple at bugis area mahs..
before tt we went to little india.. shopped ard mans..
tt's so many things.. it's nice!.. i like the sarees!.. (:
wees!.. getting bored of town.. aha!.. moreover, the things in little india are cheap!.. (:
they're nice too wors!.. *smiles*

hmmm.. oh ya!.. we went to mustafa as well!.. it's like woah!..
i was looking at lolipops & chocolates!.. hee..
yesh yesh!.. i am greedy la!.. lolipops & chocolates are just ma favourite!.. (:
ermmm.. walked all the way to temple!.. was like hell damn god!..
the weather is like killing me!.. *faints*
was so tired!.. *arghs*
we headed to OG after going temple.. mum wanna shop there..
then me & sis saw this shirt.. it's so our taste!.. (:
bought it then.. wees!.. so long since i bought a shirt!!.. (x
cos most of the time i spent ma money on foods la!..
tt describe ma big fat body!.. *sobs*

damn man!.. i gonna go on diet.. i need to go for prom night!..
dies dies.. i can put on weight as much as i wanna after prom night!..
ahaha!.. siao siao le la me.. (x
wees!.. ma day today is so fun!.. thou tiring la.. aha!..
ermmms.. talked abt Jesslin!.. with sis.. aha!.. SHHHH!..
not gonna blog here!.. hee.. lalala..
i had a dream last night!.. shouldn't blog here either..
aha!.. only sis knew abt it cos i told her!.. wells.. i told one of ma ex too!.. (:

gonna study later le.. as promised to Jesslin.. opps.. i din rest.. dies..
cos i'm using comp la.. aha!.. hopefully she wont yells at me!..
if she's gonna yells at me, i sure chase her ard with cane in ma hands.. aha!..
i'm her mama & she's ma daughter wors!.. (x
but dun think she will be so bad to yell at me bahs.. *winks*

last but not least.. i think tt it's really tiring to like someone..
studies is important than anything else now!..
i gonna remind maself tt mans.. hee.. (:
perhaps i dun like her already or izzit i'm just stopping maself to like her?..
wells.. i admit tt i would choose to be a bung if i'm born with a silver spoon..
too bad i'm not.. cos i prefer to give rather to receive..
i just like to show love & care to some pple only..
cos they're important in ma life.. (:

chatted with Gerald & Vincci online.. hee..
yesh yesh!.. going Ikea with Vincci after O's.. (:
we gonna see the furniture!.. wees!..
gonna go to tt playground together & buy chicken wings in Ikea!.. (:
am so happy.. cos i wanna get furniture for ma rm mans!.. lalala..
Gerald is so funny.. she's just so cute & silly..

`berls

ermmm..

2005-10-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

i'm so TIRED!.. arghs.. was nearly late for school mans.. ):
well luckily never la!.. ahaha!.. (x
ermmms.. i dunno what happened to me but i dun dare to look at her..
if i look at her, ma heart will be beating faster.. aiyaya..
wells.. made fun of Jesslin today!.. *laughs*
she made fun of me too.. *arghs*

after sch, got a talk on physics.. hee..
starting is still very okay & we did have fun..
but then half-way through, i fell asleep..
hee.. wells.. i gonna go back school later for night study.. ):
opps.. forgot!.. aha!.. i called mikko darling today again.. wees!..
accidently said this, "dear, wake up, it's 7.10am already.".
suppose to say darling but call her dear.. oh no.. *slaps*

ytd night chatted with calvin.. then she's really funny..
at first she was like so sian & moody till she recieved a call, she's so happy..
how i wish i can receive a call from someone i like but i doubt she will call me de la..
ermmms.. fell asleep after tt then calvin called again.. oh ya.. another friend called too..
i forgot what i told them & all sia.. i mean.. i'm half asleep & awake..
aha.. i'm so blur but i did rmb tt calvin laughed at me..

i wanna go for prom night!.. anybody going?.. aha!..
rey asked me & jessica to go sia.. hmmm.. rey is such a cute boy!.. (x
he's funny sia.. what a good boy.. he's like a bro to me mans.. aha!..

Pat.G ma brother so cute!.. aint she funny.. aha!.. (x
i told her abit of ma love life thingy.. hee..
wells.. Pat.G is naughty girl!.. shouldn't mention abt tt..
opps.. yesh & i did molest her!.. who ask her dun let me walk sia!..
lalala.. am abit crazy today la.. *boo*

if only i can turn back time.. i'll choose not to like anyone..
if only i could turn back time, i will choose ma friends wisely..
if only i could turn back time, i will study hard..

`berls

hee..

2005-10-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

went home after sch.. am so damn tired!.. ):
hmmm.. passed yiya chocolates!.. got her to pass to Jesslin & pauline as well..
wells.. today rain rain.. it's not so nice!.. a good weather to sleep.. hee..

ermmm.. i nearly fell asleep during lessons but i din..
been hearing so many things ard.. *laughs*
i aint gonna care cos i know tt those pple are just so "ah soh"..
they just love to said smt tt is not true & smear pple's reputation..
i wonder when will they behave like teenager & not a kid..
i pity their steads man.. they got such kinda gf whose mentally is only 8 yrs old.. ohhh.. poor things..

tomorrow got night study!.. yesh!.. love it mans.. hee..
wells.. i forgot smt!.. JESSICA came over ma hse to study abit after sch..
hee.. we walked home together.. yesh yesh ma hse!.. (:
then we talked non-stop.. *smiles*
ermmm.. we were laughing like hell in kitchen..
cos told her abt how i deal with ma bro..
yesh!.. tt chopper story & some stuffs too.. *winks*

ermmm.. dinner at mos burger with Jessica & sis too..
went NTUC with Jessica.. aha!.. it's freaking cold in NTUC!..
bought chocolates again.. not for maself but for ma friend.. (:
Jessica said i smell like alvin.. aha!.. (x
i know ma hair smell nice la!.. cos i bath before i left hse mahs.. so.. i so lame lame..
aft tt Jessica went home.. then me & sis met up with azreen..
cos she wanna meet up with sis.. i'm like so tired..
ma eyes on her.. arzeen just look so different..
wells.. she's real sexy & hot.. she's attractive..
tt smile, her eyes, her lips, her butt, just the whole of her.. *drools*

finally started to talk to ma sis.. i mean.. finally we started talking..
cos we din talk since saturday night cos of the digital cam thingy..
wells.. sis been crazy.. told me abt LY LY!.. it's all her LY LY stuffs!..
yesh.. LY is nice.. i can sense tt she's tt kinda career woman.. (:
sis type of girl, is definitely ma type as well..
but i still prefer someone whose characters are almost like mine..

sighs.. i think i've made a mistake in smsing..
shit.. now am so afraid tt she gonna give me tt cold shoulder again..
i know i can just see her as a friend.. but i still like her..
i do like her but not as much as before..
cos am too afraid to like her even more & afraid to lose her even as a friend..

i'm so so so.. i dunno.. i'm feeling really damn down.. *sighs*
however ma day is still alright.. (:
cos jessica is ard & we're laughing & laughing..
it's good to see pple ard u laugh, it's true & i agree to what jessica said!.. *cheers*

`berls

sighs

2005-10-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

calvin morning call me & someone else!.. hee.. she knows it wells!..
calvin was like so happy.. i dunno what's wrong with her anyways.. (x
had a dreamt abt Snaile Cre anyways.. i cant rmb what dream izzit..
however i felt very good aft tt dream.. perhaps it's a nice dream i had.. haa!..
it's been long since i dream of Snaile Cre.. dunno why dream of her as well..
perhaps part of me, just miss her?.. aha!.. opps!..

morning call to mikko darling.. hee..
erm.. sch was still alrites.. (:
was tired thou but it's worth it la.. hee..
wells.. i bought some chocolates for friends.. hee..
passing them tomorrow lo.. *smiles*
wells.. next time then buy for jessica they all bahs.. (x

hmmm.. jessica din come sch today!.. so boring with her..
aha!.. i miss her today!.. oh wells.. ben & shah came to sch today as well..
i dunno what's the strange feeling i have when i see ben..
it's like.. mixed feeling?.. dunno why i felt this way either..
no, i dun like him.. i mean i dun have feelings for him..
peraps so long nv see him, then kinda shock?..
i really dunno..

wells.. history lesson today.. it's alright..
cos i can score better.. tt's what teacher told me..
hmmm.. gonna buck up on it mans.. am struggling like hell now..
gosh!.. am going to die soon!..
Mr chiu.. hee.. when nhe speaks, he's sexy..
tt voice so seductive.. tt mesmerising eyes just drew ma attention.. (x
night study is so fun.. am simply loving Ms Poh!..
she's the nicest teacher!.. she's very funny, lame & cute.. (x
wells.. think i'm abit berserk le la.. humph!..

i have had it enough.. i mean, i've already give in to u umpteen of times..
u're just one very unreasonable person.. who dun listen to pple's explainations..
u're so selfish cos u nv once consider pple's feelings at all & nv give a chance for explainations..
u expect pple to give in to u as if u're the princess.. u're so damn bossy as well!..
enough is enough.. if u aint gonna kick this bad habit, i wonder how u're going to get married..
whoever can put up with u, he/she, i gonna call him/her ma master..

"The way their tears make u want to change the world so tt it doesn't hurt her anymore.. Yet regardless if u love them, hate them, wish they would die or know tt u would die without them ... it matters not cos once in ur life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to u. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and u say a million things without trace of a sound, u know tt ur own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt. "

`berls

aha!..

2005-10-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

Ytd, Pauline & Jesslin both came over ma hse study!.. (:
wells.. Pauline abit siao siao de.. so funny..
hmmm.. am just happy ytd.. hee.. cos got abit crazy as well..
dad likes pauline & mum likes jesslin..
woah!.. if they're ma sisters, also very good arhs..
so harddworking.. aha!.. okies.. i thinking too much le la.. (x

anyways.. bought this pencil for Jesslin.. aha!..
the pencil like cute cute one, so i buy for her..
cos she good mahs.. with her ard sure can study hard de.. hee..
wells.. i gonna go buy sweets later.. i dun even know what sweets she likes..
hee.. cos i'm her mum.. must buy sweets sweets for her..

wells.. today was a long tiring day for me.. was like wanna fell asleep like tt lo.. aha!..
hmmm.. wells.. i guess tomorrow is a tiring day for me too.. ):
i'll be so busy like for weeks.. sighs..
O's are approaching & i'm still slacking abit la.. ):
ermmm.. during lessons, got smses coming in.. as well as calls.. aha!..
calvin & cake call me!.. cake is yiya's dad.. aha!.. (x
wells.. i think i'm starting to like Mr Keh?..
cos he taught me math.. he's good.. (:

wells.. crapped with friends in canteen during lunch break..
was like laughing like hell.. cos of tt topic we're talking abt..
it's abit disgusting but it's the laugh for the day..
Ms Poh came over.. then asked as abt night programme.. (:
she's nice.. i dunno.. i'll like her if she's really a crk8..
alrights.. this sounds so insane.. but i admire her lots lots!..
though she's skinny la.. she's fierce at times & she din smiles much..
overall, she's very funny & cute & LAME as well.. hee..

after sch took one round bus 184 home.. hee..
it's ma fav bus!.. then i sat at ma fav seat.. hee.. (:
was abit tired.. then keep thinking lotsa things.. sighs..
dunno what to do either.. i'm just like stuck in somewhere up there.. ):
oh!.. WEDNESDAY jessica might be coming ma hse!.. wooaH!.. aha!..
am so happy happy & happy!.. cos at least ma friend coming ma hse & we can revise together!..
wees!.. am tt happy girl now but there's some things troubling me.. ):

i wont be nice & i aint nice as before.. provoke me once or before..
i'm sorry then.. u gonna get a taste of how i felt last time then..
tt's me now.. so ya.. aha!..

i'll rmb all the times we spent together once so happily & close..
cos i nv wanna forget u.. i nv wanna to like someone else now..

`berls

hais..

2005-10-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

gosh.. i'm so so so lost now.. HUMPH!.. how?..

i'm so afraid tt i still like her..
i really dunno what to do..
i know we cant be more than friends..
but the feelings i had for her is getting stronger..
no matter how hard i try to stop maself from liking her..
i just cant do it at all!.. i really dunno what to do..
i'm really very lost right now.. *sighs*

wells.. i'm afraid tt i like another girl as well..
tt's better in characters.. i dunno.. i can click with this girl more than the girl i like..
but i'm afraid i'm taking her as a sub.. i'm afraid if i really din take her as a sub, pple will be gossiping behind..
it's like.. what the hell.. why am i feeling so lost now..
i really dunno what to do..
bascially, this girl got the kinda expectations i wanna in a r/s..

GOSH!.. someone KILL me PLEASE!.. *sighs*

i've been doing math for these 2 days!.. GOSH!..
am going bonkers soon!.. aha..
tml onwards i'm gonna be very busy..
ma sch starts at 7.30am till 5.30pm!.. what the hell..
i gonna be like studying in hell.. it's driving me nuts!..
i cant wait to get outta the sch..

`berls

2005-09-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

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aha.. it's a very true thing abt me!.. (x

friends came over ma hse on wed & we're abit siao..

anyways.. am happy the way i am now..

hee.. i love them lots.. ma friends..

tml jesslin they all coming ma hse study..

but i pass jesslin ma hse keys & ask her come ma hse 1st..

cos i'll be in sch doing ma art.. sighs.. wells..

i'm almost dead.. i gonna sleep now le..

hee.. nites peeps!..

i shall update ma entry tml.. a more detailed one.. hee.. byesss (:

CALVIN

2005-09-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

CALVIN QIU called me!.. aha.. oh wells.. forgot.. she's so funny ever..
it's really a good sign tt she can last so long with her current gf!..
looks like CALVIN QIU had changed!.. GREAT!.. (:

yesh yesh.. maybe she coming ma hse tomorrow.. hee..
tt will be good.. cos i can study le.. aha!..
or perhaps i'll go over to her place.. hmmm.. go her place fag!.. (:
go her hse.. the most only can slp?!.. *gosh*
wells.. depends la.. shall see to it & decide again.. muahaha!..

ermmms

2005-09-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

was busy busy busy!.. aha!.. so many hw coming in..
prelim results just sucks so much..
wells.. nvm.. i shall work harder.. (:

ermmms.. late for sch then din go sch kaes..
cos monkey will send me hm so what's the point..
i totally forgot to call mikko at 7am to wake her up..
gosh.. am too tired already la.. *sighs*
haven been sleeping well lately.. hee..
wells.. been having sweet dreams..

i dreamt of mj, pat eng, eugenia, jess, shiks, mei yee & chirstie.. hee..
dreamt we went tanning la.. aha!.. then it's like our mummys went there with us too..
we got doggies & we brought them for a swim can, so cute hor?.. aha!.. (:
then after tanning, we went to town to shop & dinner at crystal jade!..
what a dream.. but doubt this will come true la.. (x

been dreaming of jesslin lately too.. i dunno what's wrong with me..
hmmm.. think i'm crazy or smt?.. i really dunno lei..
oh wells.. jesslin sprink her ankle.. tt silly girl..
dunno how to ta care of herself one.. play bball till so rough..
tsk tsk tsk.. wonder how is she gonna walk man.. *sighs*
so worried for her.. wonder how she gonna go up the stairs with her heavy bag..
aiyo.. shit la.. why am i thinking of all these so much.. hmmm..

ermmmss.. sometimes i really pity some people up there..
they're just toys in others hands.. how pitiful can they be..
being controlled by others.. ohhh!.. so no freedom..
i despise pple like tt.. cos they dun have a mind of their own & they dunno how to fight back..
ohhh.. poor thing.. they dun ought to they a brain of a human at all.. they're just animals.. HA!.. (:

wells.. ms poh have became our math teacher.. izzit a good thing?..
wells.. i like her teachings.. hee.. i dunno why but i can pay much more attention during her lesson..
ermmm.. lotsa homework coming up i agree, but practice makes perfect..
anybody have any objection?.. hmmm.. dun think so, rite?.. aha!.. (x

lalala.. am so happy happy happy!.. (:
cos of tt *someone*.. SMILES
i've found "With Him" lyrics!.. so happy..
it's a nice song.. by babyface.. (:

`berls

wells..

2005-09-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

it's been days since i blog..
let me recall what i've done.. hee.. here it goes..

21 Sept 2005

-went sch for art paper
-headed home after paper
-was drenched cos of heavy rain
-Jesslin, Pauline & Nicole(sec 3) came over ma hse to study
-prepared dinner for family & friends
-they clicked well with ma lil brother
-Jesslin got grastic problem
-felt guilty as ma hse dun have painkillers
-offered to carry Jesslin's bag for her (:
-friends went home at abt 9pm or earlier

22 Sept 2005

-sat for account paper 1 & combine sci paper 1
-was tired
-headed home after sch
-Jesslin & Pauline came over ma hse as well
-they played games while i bath & take a nap
-prepared fried rice for lunch+dinner
-they ate fried rice.. hee..*hopefully they dun mind ma lousy cooking)
-they headed home ard 5.30pm
-i went out at ard 6.30pm to friend's hse
-met Yiya outside mac & headed to friend's hse
-was really a wonderful day cos it's been so long since i visit ma friend & we chatted quite alot
-headed home at ard 1am in the morning(tt's already 23rd Sept 2005)
-met gerald & we chatted awhile as she got family problems
-i bath, upload photos into comp & went to bed at 6am as i've sort out ma thinkings

24 th Sept 2005

-woke up 9.30am & prepared lunch
-no papers, so there's no sch
-went to Yiya's hse with ma friend
-wonderful day thou tiring as well
-dinner at sunshine with ma friend & yiya's dad
-friend got headache ):
-headed home after dinner
-bath & used comp till now.. (x

oh wells.. tomorrow ma friend might be coming ma hse to study.. opps i mean later in the afternoon..
hee.. hopefully she will be coming.. *smiles*
cos we actually plan to study at yiya's hse but in the end we din.. *slaps maself*
time is running out & o's are nearing.. *faints*

anyways.. dreamt or melissa chua.. hee.. dunno why either..
dreamt tt we went hong kong dinseyland & taiwan together..
then we spent all our money & we're struck in taiwan.. (x

been smsing with Jesslin for quite some time.. hee..
she's really funny.. some of her smses can make me laugh.. (x

oh wells.. was abit guilty cos din morning call ma darling at 7am on fri.. *sighs*
-sorry darling, hope u aint angry.. pls dun tired urself with ur art work, alrites?-

`berls

hee..

2005-09-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

what can i say.. wells.. account paper 2 is damn difficult..
think i gonna flaunt ma prelims.. (x
wells.. woke up at 3am like tt.. then saw darling mikko's sms.. hee..
tt silly.. sleep so late & needs to wake up at 7am.. *shakes head*
wells.. started ma revision for like half an hour.. then fell asleep..
was sick ya.. throat damn itchy & got abit cough..

after paper headed home.. was smsing with Nu er Jesslin.. aha!..
cos she smsed me 1st then tell me the plans for tml..
hmmm.. i'll be home till 6.30pm alone!.. what the hell..
i thought tml is chem, physics & POA paper 1 then nv expect is art paper!..
ma fucking printer spoiled!.. how am i gonna print ma resources out man..
fuck la!.. *arghs*
ermmm.. wells.. Jesslin & Pauline came over ma hse..
played playstation games!.. hee.. too bored already u see..
they just left not long ago.. they're very funny.. aha!..
prepared for them bread with egg & chesse.. aha!..
ma hse no food la.. poor thing, rite?.. (x

ermmm.. might be going park lane with Qiu Ping to collect her specs..
wells.. called her but there's no respond at all.. dunno what happen as well..
i'm BORED!.. *sighs*
out soon!.. i wanna go out!.. aha!..
perhaps take a scroll along the beach or something?..
or rather should i go esplanade?.. hee.. some place tt's peaceful..
i need some fresh air.. i need some space..
before heading out.. i gonna prepare dinner.. ohh..
so tiring la please.. byeess

`berls

grins

2005-09-18T19:51:00.000+08:00

wells.. been home the whole day..
woke up then went out for lunch with family..
headed home after tt.. been smsing with Jesslin nu er lately.. (:
ahh.. hopefully she recovers from the illness already..

oh wellss.. was so damn tired man.. but i did study..
for the sake of ma daughter.. must listen to her, must study mahs..
aha.. think so far, she's the only friend tt can really motivate me to study..
isn't it good?.. cos i've been searching for this kinda friend.. (:
wells.. i studied math till ard 6pm then went to bed for an hour or more..
ermmm.. did sms Jesslin nu er.. (:
ma mummy is so funny.. she asked if Jesslin coming over to ma hse study tomorrow..
thus i asked jesslin abt it.. (:

just taken ma dinner.. didn't really have appetite at all..
i gonna study physics later man.. (:
for once, i managed to study alone.. hopefully this goes on.. *smiles*
cos i'm one who cant study alone in the rm.. i'll feel bored & sleepy.. (x

sighs.. sis went out alone.. f*ck!.. she went to watch "Be With Me"..
i wanna watch la.. but i cant.. cos i need to study.. what the hell!.. it's M18 show..
nvm.. i think i got way to watch it anyways.. hee..
sis will be heading to esplanade after the show i suppose so..
i wanna go out.. it's bored at home.. *arghs*
nvm.. i shall bear with it man.. after O's, i gonna go anywhere i like..
i gonna go work, earn money, go tours & stuffs.. hee..
i've planned everything.. what i gonna do after o's & how i'm gonna spend ma money after i've work.. hee..

it's been so many days since i see her.. sighs..
nvm.. tomorrow there's school.. hopefully i get to see her..
chatted with amy just now.. tt silly lil one..
always facing so many problems in her life.. *shakes head*
she's like always bullied by others & dunno how to stand up for herself..
friends, colleagues, family & girlfriend.. she's always giving in.. *arghs*
i really dunno what to do la.. already advised her & stuffs..
whatever her decision is, she better not regret..
it's irritating if u dont know how to decide in ur own..
am sorry tt i hung up ur call just like tt cos i'm already pissed off..

`berls

sighs..

2005-09-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

was at home the whole day.. aha!.. (:
hmmm.. smsed Jesslin when i woke up..
hopefully she will recover soon.. cos she's sick..

ytd came over ma hse accompanied me to study.. aha!..
good sia.. like tt then i can study.. if not i sure wont study one..
she's one silly girl la.. aha!.. abt the air-con thingy.. (x
i like her mother like tt keep nagging at her.. aha!..
told her drink more water.. blah blah blah la..
she got sore throat as well then still eat popiak with chilli.. *faints*
zhen shi de.. bu hui zhao gu zhi ji.. HUMPH!..

sent her home at 10.40pm like tt lo.. aha!..
cos she helped me washed up the dishes & she came all the way to ma hse to study with me..
felt bad so i decided to send her home.. somemore i'm being polite & nice to her cos she's nice to me!..
luckily she's not staying very far from ma place.. or else i send her to the bus stop only.. aha!.. opps.. (x
lalala.. dunno.. am just so happy.. cos i did study & everything is in ma mind!..
thanks god, got jesslin with me to study.. or else.. i'll be like so alone in the hse rotting away.. *laughs*

anyways.. prepared dinner for family today & do housechores.. ):
i'm so damn tired & ma arms so tiring now.. *sighs*
actually intened to meet Jesslin pass her peppermint honey drink..
cos her throat still pain pain mahs but i not free.. aha!.. *apologise*

`berls

hee..

2005-09-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. ytd.. after paper then headed home.. (:
then jesslin came over study.. aha!.. so nice hor..
cos i alone at home.. boring like hell.. she come over can accompany me study..
i tried to sleep but i cant.. i dunno why.. (x
ermmm.. fetched her at ma hse bus stop there..
then reached ma hse, i went to bath.. then study with her..
oh ya!.. done something for Jesslin.. stupid printer.. can't print out.. damn!..
nvm.. but told Jesslin to take a look at it.. aha!..
Piangs!.. she's the 1st friend tt i've done tt for her, okies?!.. *laughs*
nothing special actually.. hopes she likes it.. *smiles*

study till 5.30pm then we watched channel 8 show..
blah blah blah.. mummy din cook dinner at all..
then i cook lo.. Jesslin hungry dunno how to say one.. aiyoyo..
aha!.. made egg with mayonise on it & chesse with bread.. *yummys*
prepared one of it for brother as well..
then fried the roti-prata for ma parents.. aha!.. fried one for Jesslin..
scare later she hungry mans.. (x
Qui ping came over in the evening lo.. aha!..
then dad bought us chicken wings & fries.. (:
so nice.. yesh yesh!.. i love chicken & eggs.. aha!.. (:
Qiu Ping played chinese chess with brother then after tt, bro, me, jesslin & qiu ping played "Dai Di"..
ermmm.. they left ma place at around 11.25pm.. Jesslin no last bus home mans..
then she took the last bus of 75 instead of bus 184 home.. (:
she boarded the bus.. then i sent Qiu Ping to the traffic light near pending lrt..

went home after that.. washed up & intended to sleep..
then Jesslin called me le.. cos i told her to drop me a call when she's home..
am really so damn tired mans.. gosh.. yesh.. and i do really look like a panda.. *faints*
ermmm!.. forgot.. aha!.. we took photos together!.. i mean Jesslin & me la.. aha!..
so happy lo.. never take photo with her before de.. *laughs*
then we took ma softies & took photos as well.. aha!..
hmmm.. still got lotsa friends never take photos with me mans..
gonna upload the photos in ma comp mans.. hee.. lalala..
wells.. today went back school for chinese papers..
yesh.. am gonna die la pls.. it's like so damn freaking difficult.. *arghs*
oh wells.. then after sch went to cashew heights.. hee..
with yiya lo.. then qiu ping came with us as well..
after that met up with han xiang la.. fagged only 2 sticks today.. aint i a good girl?.. *winks*
headed home after i sent Qiu Ping to the Traffic light near pending lrt.. aha!..
she's happily talking to her darling stead la!.. her stead good sia.. can play piano..

replied Jovi.. hee.. might be meeting up with her for some coffee at cck coffee bean..
aha!.. she's been so bored & she cant get enough of sleep..
she's heading to city hall.. dunno for what mans.. aha!..
oh wells.. smsed ma darling mikko just now.. *laughs*
she sounded so hyper-active this morning when i gave her morning call..
she's really cute la.. aha!.. she's going party tonight.. told her to enjoy herself..
hopefully by now she had taken her lunch.. oh else.. sighs.. strave herself only.. not good sia.. hmmm..
ma ba ku teh in potty aka Mervis sick le.. hmmm.. hopefully she recovers soon.. *prays*
Jesslin coming over accompany me study!.. YEY!.. not gonna be alone studying le.. aha!.. (:
gonna catch some sleep already.. see u ard peeps.. *waves*

`berls the happy girl for the day.. (:

2005-09-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

this is so damn true abt me.. aha!.. go try it out man!.. (:

wells.. i forgot.. i just chatted with Lise not long.. she's not a singaporean.. (:

she's nice to chat with.. aha!.. guess what.. she's a gemmi too..

looks like i've been getting to contact with gemmi babies arhs.. (x

she said i'm interesting & i've brighten up her day.. oh wells.. hopefully i really did cos she's not in a very good mood.. aha!.. (x

am surprised tt ma friends from downelink got friendster account too!.. aha!..

then they add me up already.. hee.. (:

am so looking forward to see Lise online man.. she's one handsome cool dude!.. *smiles*

her longest relationship with her gf is 3 yrs!.. O_o!

she only had 3 ex gf before.. tt was like.. woah!..

spore bungs, changed gf like as thou drinking water like tt.. hmmm..

`berls

arghs!..

2005-09-15T14:40:00.001+08:00

wells.. yesterday morning went for breakfast with classmates.. hee.. (:
aheaded home after school.. science practical so eassy!.. aha!.. no la.. kidding.. i think at most i can get A2 for the practical la.. hee.. wells.. so happy.. cos physics, i 1st time connect the electricity thingy correctly all by maself lo.. hee.. oh ya!.. gave mikko morning call!.. aha..
she sounded so blur when she picked up ma call.. *smiles*
Qiu Ping came over ma hse then went over hers..
headed to park lane to study with her friend, alan..

after studying, went to clementi to meet jesslin.. *smiles*
Jesslin so nice arhs.. ha.. i tummy upset.. aha.. then she like nurse!.. (x
reached there at around 9pm.. she bought warm water down..
nice right.. then we went to buy chinese pills for tummy upset uses?!..
it really sucks.. taste like.. ermmm.. very bitter & smelly.. *pukes*
went to canal together.. qiu ping, alan, jesslin & me.. (:
aha.. jessslin no choice but to accompany me.. no la kidding..

ermmm.. we got hard time going down the slope lo..
it's like so muddy & slippery.. somemore so steep.. *laughs*
hmmm.. alrites.. mud went into ma butt can!.. *fants*
however, was really happy ytd.. got fun.. aha!..
chatted with jesslin.. feel so much better & stuffs.. (:
she's a good listener & someone i'm comfortable with.. *smiles*
tummy upset again when we're at the canal there.. *sighs*
we left at around 11.30pm or 11.40pm... took mrt then changed lrt home.. (x

somehow abit wanna find out who mikko went dinner for..
in the end i know la.. cos i got drop her a call mahs.. aha!.. (x
i dun like it when she sent short smses?.. i feel uneasy..
i really dunno why i got this reaction.. *slaps*
nvm.. maybe i'm just curious?.. i dunno.. *arghs*
i wondered.. how good will it be if i ever found someone tt i like whom have jesslin or yiya's characters..
wont it be great?.. they got good characters.. tt's what i like abt these kinda of pple.. hee..

wells.. reached home around 12.15am.. aha!.. (:
when i stepped outta the lift, then there's this 2 PL!.. *smiles*
they're in short hair, gosh, they're just so attractive to me..
anyways.. i think of gracinia la.. cos they resembles her mahs..
i was like abit blur & shocked la okies?.. then ma hands auto "open" & ma plams are just facing her boots.. *gosh*
i walked left or right, she does tt too.. alrites.. then i apologised immediately..
cos it's like so funny.. ma plams facing her boots.. then somemore.. aiya.. i dunno la..
they laughed & smiled.. aha!.. i was like laughing & smiling too.. i apologised a total of 3 times..
then they said never mind, it's okay.. *smiles*
anyways.. i think they're tt andro's friend.. there's this andro staying at ma blk la..
she's tall & she got a car.. hee.. used to see her often but not now.. i dunno why..
she's nice.. cos she does ask if i need a free ride to school.. *smiles*

bath after i've reached home lo.. washed ma nike dunk while bathing as well.. aha!..
ermmm.. then use dryer to dry ma shoes.. hee..
thanks so much to jesslin man.. for the chinese book.. (:
wells.. slept at around 2am like tt.. was tossing & turning.. cant really get to sleep la.. *sighs*
been facing some problems.. oh wells.. hopefully it wont affect me so much la..

anyways.. morning just sucks so much.. quarrels occured & all la.. sighs..
spoilt ma mood.. i din have mood to do the history paper today at all..
alrites.. there goes ma humans.. *sighs*
might be meeting Jesslin later.. gonna pass her wallet.. cos it's with me..
then ytd in rush.. aha.. she's understanding la.. (:
aint using ma hp again.. oh wells.. sucks..
cos i'm expecting jovi's sms la.. (x
tt jovi who stay at cck with her realatives.. WATHONE, dun mistaken arhs.. aha!..

alrites.. gonna go sleep.. then later hopefully i'll go find jesslin..
need some fresh air.. i hate this home.. i dun like it..
i'm all alone right now.. almost everyday at this point of time..
really wanna puke blood.. *arghs*

`berls

arghs!..

2005-09-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

hee..

2005-09-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

FINALLY GET INTO HERE TO UPDATE MA ENTRY.. (:

12th sept 2005

before heading to sch, called snailie & mikko.. aha!..
surprising arhs.. snailie wake up so early.. guess i shld know why she woke up so early & who she was with at tt time.. took bus to school.. it's tt bus 184 again.. hee.. so happy.. (:
had ma CME & Social Studies paper.. ):
got no time for social studies paper at all.. *sighs*
headed home after school.. rest awhile.. haha..
online too.. then snailie online too.. so sweet of her to ask how's ma papers.. much appreciated.. chatted with her awhile.. she's so busy.. gonna meet 7 deadlines?!.. *gosh*
chatted with WATHONE the spre GIGI LEUNG.. aha!.. Jovi's darling lei.. (:
Jovi so lucky.. got such a gd looking gf sia.. *thumbs up*

hmmm.. evening met qiu ping & other classmates..
we din really study la.. aha!.. (x
was doing the math paper form bukit panjang high.. *gosh*
difficult like hell i swear.. went home after tt.. hmmm.. took one round bus 184 with qiu ping.. cos i dun wanna head home so early.. then she keep me accompany.. aha!..
chatted on bus as well.. lotsa things.. aha!.. told her abt mikko.. *grins*
anyways.. the bus passed by the park & the block she's staying.. then was looking at it.. it's good to have some memories.. aha!.. then i pulled qiu ping's hand & pointed at the park & the block..
we were both smiling.. *nods nods, only both of us know what had happened before*
alighted at the bus stop near ma hse.. then qiu ping injured herself.. aha!..
promised to send her home on tuesday & wednesday..
tt silly girl.. must have had been thinking of her darling boyfriend too much la.. (x

reached home around 10.40pm like tt.. then washed up & online again.. aha!..
called mikko.. then asked her to online.. hee..
chatted with Wathone & Yiya online as well.. (:
slept at around 2am.. gosh.. so tired.. ):

13th sept 2005

woke up at 5.10am this morning.. immediately jumped up of bed..
qiu ping gave me morning call to study.. aha!.. (x
but was really tired.. i did study.. study till i fell asleep.. *faints*
called snailie cre but she din pick up at all.. nvm.. she's sure to be sleeping again..
wells.. called mikko as well.. give her morning call.. aha!.. (:
then went to school after that.. hee..
i missed 2 buses.. then am so afraid tt i'll be late..
but it's a good thing to missed 2 buses la.. cos i took tt bus 184 again!.. the one with plate number "TIB853M"..
yesh yesh.. i get happy so easily & i get so excited so easily.. hee..
alrites.. i think i'm abit behaving like little girl la.. humph!.. dunch care.. as long as i'm happy.. aha!..

wells.. see pple studying like sia!.. i'm so slack.. aha!..
nvm then.. guess what.. hmmm.. math paper 1 & chemistry paper 3 today..
i lost 17 marks for math paper 1 & chemistry paper 3, i lost almost 3/4 of the marks or rather more..
today papers are so damn tough.. *sighs*
after sch, went west mall with Jess, shiks & qiu ping.. hee..
think of snailie cre & mj when we reached west mall.. aha..
snailie cre is cos tt time met up with her there for dinner with me & sis..
then think of mj is cos of 7th march 2004 we're there.. *slaps.. what am i thinking man*gosh* aha!
i'm so kind-hearted la.. i helped qiu ping carried her book & file.. *i'm self praising*thick-skin* winks!
alrites la.. is cos qiu ping tired.. partly, she injured herself on bus cos of me.. so i must "zhi dong" mahs..
went to burger king for lunch.. been so long since i had burger king meal.. (x
tml meeting friends for breakfast at west mall the mac there..
think of meeting snaile cre tml before heading for breakfast with friends.. perhaps call her later & ask if she's free..
anyways.. headed home after lunch.. then sent qiu ping home as promised.. one more day to go!.. aha!..
alrites.. gonna sleep later then gonna wake up study for history.. (:

everynight i just feel like calling mikko.. i dunno why.. but i find her funny & cute..
just a little conversation or to wish her good-night is alright for me as well.. aha!..
hmmm.. been thinking of Jake ma ah gong.. wondering how's she's doing..
all thanks to qiu ping la!.. she said the word ah gong, then make me think of jake!..
memories flashed back.. but i choose to think of the happy memories.. (:
isnt it sweet if i got the power to stop time?.. i'll stop it when we're at esplanade there.. *slaps, what am i thinking man*arghs.. better wake up le la.. stop dreaming* aha!
oh ya!.. qiu ping's ah gong is alan.. her working friend.. *smiles*
anyways.. wen hui coming over later.. she passing me some painkillers.. much appreciate..
tummy upset these few days.. *sighs*
see la.. think of jake again.. nvm.. aha, cos 1st time met up, jake passed me medicine as well.. *smiles*
it's part of the good memories we had thou..

wells.. admitted to Jess tt i'm not forgiving, forgetting.. i'm one who bear grudges no matter what..
if anyone, whom i trust so much, whom i once had been so close with, whom i always share ma woes with, however one day, abuse ma trust, betray me, backstab me or what so ever.. i'll bear everything in mind..
maybe we can patch things up but still, there will be something amiss in the friendship.. the strong bonds will no longer be there..
qiu ping & me.. been quite close lately but still, i wont forget what she said abt me..

friends or buddies, not all are trustable.. u may be nice to them but they dont know how to appreciate what u've done for them.. perhaps they dont think tt u're important to them.. perhaps they dont even give a damn abt u.. perhaps the importance of friendship in their eyes is nothing.. perhaps they're selfish cos they think for themselves more than u..
i've experienced all these before.. perhaps i'm just a fool la..
perhaps in the 1st place, i should be selfish, think for maself & not for friends or buddies, so i wont end up getting hurt & deceived by them..

i wondered how one will feel if she heard that her used-to-be-close buddy is att to the person she likes..

`berls

sighs..

2005-09-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

slept at 4.30am or 5am on Sat & woke up at around 3.30pm on Sat with Yiya called.. (:
haha!.. went to her hse after i taken ma breakfast + lunch..
went her hse.. slack abit.. study abit.. aha!..
on way to Yiya's hse, saw Ah Dong lo.. hee.. she's cute!.. (x

ermmm.. went to lot 1 for dinner at Suki Sushi.. hee..
wells.. sis smsed Yiya & then she met up with us at Suki Sushi.. (:
headed to town after that.. hee.. nono.. headed to Yiya's hse first..
then saw You Se, Denise & Ah Dong again.. ahaha..
chatted awhile then we gone separate ways.. (:
went Cine.. bought 3 tickets.. watched "THE CAVE"..
it's a nice show!.. hee.. i like it.. oh lalala.. wee hee!.. (x

hmmm.. went to tt 24hr Swens to slack for some time..
tt's this malay, she's really sweet looking, cute & pretty.. *drools*
oh wells.. yesh.. i love to look at girls.. aha!.. (:
ermmm.. shared fish & chips with Yiya then got the ice cauppociuno..
sis had her burger & ice-cream.. hee.. (:
snapped some photos.. aha!.. behind me sat 2 bungs & 2 femmes..
then sis told me one of the bungs nice looking..
damn it man.. shld have sit with sis then i could take a look mahs.. lols.. (x
oh wells.. tt night.. lotsa bungs & femmes in town.. al quite nice looking lo..
guess what i wore to town?.. ma sec 2 class jersay & pe shorts, with ma nike dunk.. *gosh*

haha.. cos didnt think of going to town in the 1st place.. it's just so sudden la..
anyways, Saha came to meet us at Swens.. he's funny!.. aha!..
went to watch "the cave" then after tt headed home.. hee..
took NR3 outside herden.. *smiles*
the bus passed by UE square.. wells.. used to meet joey there cos she's working there mahs..
but now, we've lost contact already.. her girlfriend just dun like us to contact.. so UNREASONABLE!..

reached home at abt 4.30am.. hmmm.. took a shower.. then chatted with sis till 6am.. *smiles*
we're lying on our bed of cos!.. aha!.. then sis fell asleep le..
met amy at 7am under ma block.. then had breakfast with her at the coffeeshop located at bangkit.. (:
she's really troubled.. oh wells.. hopefully she's fine..
rushed home after breakfast.. din send her home la.. she stay so far away from ma area..
anyways, i'm tired as well.. if i aint tired, i might have send her home i guess..
but i need to visit grandpa as well.. *sighs*
been so busy lately.. *shakes head*

wells.. left house at abt 9am.. then reached grandpa's place at ard 10.10am..
massaged grandpa.. *smiles* he's really naughty.. aha!..
i simply love ma grandpa.. hee.. perhaps after O's, i'll move in to stay with him..
so i can spend more time with him.. hee.. (:
hmmm.. headed to Tiong baru plaza for lunch with siblings..
then went home after tt.. (:
resize all the photos.. actually intend to sleep.. but i din.. study for quite a long time..
oh wells.. after tt bath & all.. then study again.. then after awhile went to sleep..
slept for 2hrs.. then wake up & study again.. *gosh*
am really so tired.. need to face the notes & stuffs.. *arghs*
but am left with no choice at all..
i need to struggle like hell.. need to squeeze everything into ma head..
sec 3 & sec 4 work.. i'm left with like not much time to O's.. ):
i wonder what i'll do & how i'll react if ma results aint as good as i wanna or rather the target tt i've aimed..

i wanna get into CJC or rather Ngee Ann poly.. i wanna to go into either business studies course, toursim board or films & media.. i'm aiming for all these.. i know i need a very good score to get into wither 1 of these courses..
thus i must really struggle now.. everything into ma damn fucking brain..
am so stressed now.. hopefully i wont retain or whatever.. *prays hard*
but am well-prepared.. if worst come to the worst, if ma score cant enter the course tt i wanna in poly, then i might choose to retain.. hopefully can do better.. ya.. that's what i told ma mum.. if sch dun accept me.. then i gonna take private & find a part time job.. *smiles*
mum understand ma needs.. she din say anything much but to stand by me.. (:

`berls

hee..

2005-09-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

woke up at ard 9.20am or 9.30am.. (:
hmmm.. then called snailie cre.. aha.. she's late for work as usual la.. (x
bet ba ku teh in potty & snailie had fun last night at gotham (:

wellsss.. chatted with brather ammer last night
ermmm.. met brather ameer in the morning..
he came ove ma place.. yet i haven even bath!.. cos i'm using the comp mahs.. aha!..
took ma shower after he entered ma room.. tt's the only place we must stay in..
otherwise ma brother see him, sure kanna shock one.. (x
brather really funny.. like scare of ma parents.. *laughs*
anyways.. revised our work till 11 plus or 12 like tt.. (:
took his hp & see photos.. aha!.. so funny.. esp the one alfy's in toilet!.. opps..
saw his messages.. aha!.. he got stored mel's forward smses too..
his inbox is full of conversation smses.. *faints*

he left ma hse at ard 12.30pm.. oh ya!.. we took a pic!.. then snap a pic of him as well!..
he give tt kinda retarded act cute face.. *laughs*
took a photo of ma brother & him too.. *smiles* but used his hp took one la.. (:
sent brather ameer down.. then headed home.. hee..
went to bed again till 4pm.. am really tired i swear.. (:
anyways.. been thinking lotsa things la..
what ian said abt me.. maybe it's right.. but i hope it's not..
i wanna find out the answer maself.. maybe it will take me quite a long time..
i really dunno.. *sighs*

hmmm.. snailie was late for work ytd as well.. for like 50mins?.. then her boss still so kinda.. din scold her & stuffs.. aha!.. just now when i signed in msn, she clicked on me & we chatted awhile..
awhile is good enough la.. *laughs*
oh wells.. been mailing with gerald for quite some time.. aha!..
she asked if i'll be going for the thumper event.. *shakes head*
doubt tt i'll be going.. sure kanna check by bouncer one what..
it's like 21 yrs old then can go in la!.. somemore next day having papers.. ):

ma aries girl so funny.. tt silly mikko.. *laughs*
she's cute cute cute & CUTE!.. love her bits.. (:
just like to chat with her & chatting with her, i'll be like laughing away..
will be expecting her call.. aha!.. i'm her leo girl, she's ma aries girl.. (:
aha!.. oh wells.. think i really happy easily by small things.. isn't it good?..
it's better than to be affected by small things.. now i've learnt..
anyways.. thanks so much to all the peeps tt had been standing there for me.. *smiles*

alrites.. let me have some soul searching.. *laughs*
i admit i tend to have feelings for pple quite fast & will fade fast as well..
maybe it's cos there's not someone tt really tied me down?.. tt really can capture ma whole heart?..
oh wells.. i'm still young.. aha!.. i can have fun for all i care.. (:
but obviously, hopefully i wont be hurt & vice versa..

i think i got lots to talk to Jess when school reopens.. aha!..
ermmm.. i really dunno what to do.. am really so confused..
yesh yesh.. Jess open-minded & think i can share with her the problems tt i've faced these 2 days..
wells.. today din go out with Jia Jia cos she cant make it.. ):
gonna study later.. shit man!.. i always said i'll study & study.. but there's always smt tt distract me la..
aha.. ma motivation is.. let me think.. Jo, mervix, yiya & brather ameer..
oh else i'll be disappointing them.. aha!.. (x

Yiya's dad called me ytd.. ask me go batam(izzit spelled this way?)
i wish i could but i cant.. fuck shit.. cant find ma passport at all la.. cos mummy keep it!.. *arghs*
anyways.. it's been so long since i pay grandpa a visit.. gonna pay him a visit tomorrow..
i miss grandpa.. am really guilty with maself.. cos i promised him i'll visit when i got the time..
now i've realised tt i've been neglecting ma family.. been spending too much time with friends & comp..
gosh.. i should have spend all the time on ma family & studies.. shit maself.. am really slacking & lagging behind others.. it aint a good thing..
think i need to buck up real soon man..

i'm waiting to see someone when school reopens.. (:

`berls

aha!..

2005-09-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

7th sept 2005

woke up automactially at 7.30am.. was still tired & sleepy..
then gave Cre & Mervix morning call.. (:
went to school for chemistry lessons..
learnt quite alot of things thou.. understand more on the topic.. (:
hmmm.. after tt breakfast + lunch with shiks lao po..
went to timah there for prata.. hee.. *yummy*
messaged with mikko, ma cute aries girl.. *smiles*
ermmm.. met up with Jia Jia & headed to condo for a swim & tanning..
the sun aint strong enough but am satisfied with the colour of ma skin.. (:
sunday tanning again!.. but it's with ma beloved sis.. hee..
going tanjong beach on sun.. but still, i prefer palawan cos got memories there.. *smiles*

after swimming & tanning, went to bugis with Jia Jia & her friend.. (:
went to temple to pray la.. laugh if u wanna.. i dunch care.. (x
after bugis, met up with Yiya & Wen Hao at plaza..
then we took bus 184 to clementi.. taken some photos on bus with Wen Hao..
we got nth better to do u see.. (:
oh wells!.. we boarded that bus 184 with the plate number "TIB853M".. hee.. shhhh.. dun tell u what happened.. but so obviously i'm happy, rite?.. (x
went to clementi mac to study.. i din study la.. but Wen Hao & Yiya done their homework or whatever lo.. *smiles*
Maddy & Hui Shi came over after that.. blah blah blah..
we left Mac.. then Wen Hao & me went to buy smt 1st b4 finding Yiya they all at the basketball court..

we left the basketball court at around 8pm i think.. cos sent Hui Shi to bus stop to take bus home mahs.. Wen Hao accompanied me till 11pm..
thru 3 hrs.. were slacking around.. then i was fagging..
the night with Wen Hao still okay la.. then we chatted.. talked abt our past.. tt's really funny.. *laughs*
at a point, i'm quite regretful for what had occured at the park when he told me tt's he's att when we're walking to plaza.. perhaps he din even know what he's doing?.. whatever la..

8th sept 2005

woke up at 7.40am this morning.. morning calls to Snaile cre & ba ku teh in potty mervix..
snailie din picked up.. supposingly must be sleeping away.. Mervix did pick up thou.. (:
ermmm.. went back to bed to laze awhile then went to school with royston..
he's really silly.. he reached ma block still dunno how to call me.. *gosh*
much appreciated for his patience thou.. *laughs*
brather ameer smsed me during midnight.. only saw his sms this morniing.. called him.. aha!.. then he told me he's going back school at 11am for Geo.. (:
chemistry lessons nice nice!.. hee.. then cher gave us chocolate.. *yummy*
I LOVE CHOCOLATES TO THE CORE!.. they're ma life man!..
anyone just to make me happy, u know what to do.. *hints hints*winks winks*

left school at around 11.30am.. hee.. walked pass study area.. saw brather ameer, pat.g & other 4/2 pple.. (:
breakfast + lunch at timah again.. but i din ordered prata la.. i ordered fried rice with chicken sambal.. *it's nice*
during payment time, i've done some mischievious before that.. *smiles*
shouldn't tell u!.. *boo* find out urself, alrites?.. go ask ma classmates!.. (x
lalala.. oh ya.. went there with royston, wei liang & wei xiang as well as sin yee..
oh gosh.. i'm running outta time.. got ma prelim art questions today.. shit ass..
ma o's art haven finish at all!.. *arghs*

went plaza library to borrow book after we left timah.. hee.. then headed home..
messaged with brather ameer.. aha.. i woke up at around 6pm..
cos of a call.. stupid brother told her i sleeping.. ):
nvm.. i did call her back as well.. hee.. we din talk long la..
she smsed me after we put down.. aha!.. aint she funny..
i called her, could talk on the phone but she wanna sms me instead..
damn.. i forgot call brather ameer.. shall call him later.. (:
ermmm.. was happy.. really happy.. took bus 184 home mahs.. then tt plate number is "TIB853M".. hee.. this 2 days taken tt bus 3 times le..
ahaha.. so happy la.. hmmm.. maybe only some pple know why.. *smiles*

sighs.. gonna helped sister with her work later.. nvm.. after that i gonna do ma revision.. at least an hour or so.. or rather do ma art la.. (:
oh wells.. this comp i'm using now sucks so much!.. humph!..
gonna reboot this comp again.. shit it.. *poo*stinks stinks*

`berls

day out with jiajia..

2005-09-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning at ard 9 plus..
aha.. then messaged Jovi & Cre.. (:
ermmm.. after that drank a glass of milk after i've washed up..
study awhile then went out with mummy to the market..
mummy is sick.. then accompanied her to doctor..
taken ma breakfast cum lunch at the coffeeshop after that..
it's been so long since i go to the market.. aha!..
oh wells.. saw Shi Min.. that tall slim girl with a gracious smile on her face..
yaya, ma primary schoolmate.. hee.. i really admired her since primary school..
she's smart & outstanding.. her characters are good as well.. *thumbs up*
i didn't approach her cos she was talking to her mother..

hmmm.. bought lunch home for brother.. hee..
when i reached home, brother told me he installed everything in computer.. (:
smart fatty lil brother i have.. *laughs*
alrites.. reached home, i bath then met up with Jia Jia.. hee..
we went to cck there.. aha!.. went to stadium for jog.. (:
it' s been long since i jog too.. *smiles*
i love the sun!.. simply loving it to the core!..
had a great time with Jia Jia today.. hee.. (:
ermmm.. after that she headed home but i went to look for Yiya.. *smiles*
Ren Feng at Yiya's place too.. aha!.. chatted quite a while..
heys.. i helped Yiya to iron her shirt!.. aha!.. she's the 1st bung whom i've ironed so many clothes for..
but it's alrite.. aha!.. she's ma bung buddy always there for me as well.. (:

wells.. stupid monkey called ma house.. then said got Chemistry remedial..
on wednesday as well as on thursady.. *arghs*
nvm la.. actually it's good for me.. gonna buck up on ma Chemistry..
am really lacking behind others man.. *shakes head*sighs*
anways.. tomorrow meet Jia Jia again at Cashew heights there at ard 11am..
need a swim for tomorrow.. ohhh.. hopefully the sun is strong!..
*nods head* so i can get to tan!.. ahaha!..
Thurday might be going to Jia Hao's Condo too but Qiu Ping gonna check with him first..
Friday is cycling day!.. will be cycling to West Coast.. *smiles*
well.. West Coast there got Mac as well.. can study there.. (:

everything is well-planned.. hopefully there's no changes to it..
good changes, why not but not bad changes please..

felt that i've been neglecting ma family the past few months..
as i spent most of ma time in school, spent time with friends & stuffs..
at least now i understand the importance of family..
cos they're always there for u.. last but not least, good communciation is the key to it..
i'm lucky to have a mum & sis listening to me & guiding me thru out ma life even through sometimes agruements are unaviodable..
all dad gonna do is to bring in money for the family.. aha!.. (x
what abt ma brother?.. wells.. he could help us with the computer installments & all..
he's better in computer than anyone of us in this family.. (:

`berls

outta the day

2005-09-05T11:09:00.000+08:00

3rd sept 2005

ermmm.. chatted with ameer brather on msn in the morning before i left house..
he went to shenton way for tuition!.. O_o!
tt's so far la.. but it's good for him cos he could study.. (:
actually should be revising school work in the morning but in the end i went to meet Yiya mahs.. hee
Yiya bought 2 shirts.. aha!.. i helped her choose the 1st one.. *grins*
after tt headed to town to meet ma sis.. hee..
ermmm.. we shopped around town.. finding presentie..
went to action city(at herden & plaza sing).. finding softies as presentie.. (:
action city.. hmmm.. think of Jake for a while.. cos the baby taz(ma son) she bought for me was from action city..
anyways, supposingly should meet Sarah but in the end never..
she's in a rush to meet her friends..

3 of us(Sis, Yiya & me) went to musical shop shop at Plaza Sing.. (:
oh gosh.. i din know Yiya can play quite a lot of instructments.. *thumbs up*
aha!.. think of ma ba ku teh in potty, mervix.. cos she plays a lot of instructment as well!..
somehow think of jake as well.. especially when i saw those violins.. *sighs* ):
ermmm.. then after that met ian.. we left for dinner at NYDC.. hee..
ian went off when Sarha came over.. aha!.. tt black man!.. humph!.. (x

hmmm.. sister ordered "destiny child"..(we shared tt together), ice mocha(sis) & the genius drink(mine)..
i swore tt the genius drink sucks!.. it's gasy.. i dun like it at all.. *pukes*
anyways.. there's this girl, she's really nice looking!.. *smiles*
alrites.. really have lotsa fun at NYDC.. aha!.. tt's the funniesy & craziest day!.. (:
we played pranks on the NYDC staffs.. *shakes head*
tt day really behaved like some kiddys outta there.. aha!.. (x
after we left NYDC, Yiya told me the malay guy staff laughed..
it was cos of what i wrote on the NYDC tissue la.. *giggles*
i decorated NYDC shirt.. then i do some drawings & i wrote "why there's no monster mushroom! ):"
after dinner, headed to Cine.. wanna catch a movie.. but in the end we din..

went home after that.. hmmm.. Sarha took MRT home..
Sis, me & Yiya went home together.. we watched Intial D at Yiya's hse.. (:
hmmm.. we wore her shirt.. aha!.. (x
her room is so cosy.. her bed is so damn nice.. aha!..
after finished watching, we took cab home.. *smiles*
threw Yiya's keys on the fish tank there.. after i locked the door.. (:

4th sept 2005

slept till 4pm then woke up.. aha!.. ma hair is so damn nice.. (:
when i woke up, got a style there already.. aha!..
hmmm.. took our breakfast + lunch & we went out..
went back to sis's work place.. she needa arranged some stuffs..
helped her with her work as well.. after tt, i look through ma accounts..
ermmm.. took pictures together.. aha!..
we went to marina square for dinner at long john..
the service there damn lousy & slow.. i waited 10-15 mins for ma order..
was really pissed off & frustrated by it..

ermmms.. we went to esplanade after tt.. hee..
took pictures again!.. went to the roof top.. the views of sceneries are nice!..
the cool breeze.. woah!.. aha!.. sighs.. memories brought back somehow..
think of Jake again.. cos we went to esplanade before too..
ermmms.. we went home after tt.. took bus 960 home..
when the bus reached bugis, saw hazel & her bf as well as gerard.. (:
Gerard is so damn handsome.. hazel is pretty & her bf is cute.. *smiles*
a lot of bagala & all boarded the bus.. damn.. got a smell.. i dont like it at all..
still gonna bear with it.. ermmm.. was really cold the whole day man..
aha.. soemhow think of ma past with terrence.. think abt it, felt like laughing..
but it's the past la.. it's a happy past so it's okay.. (:

later gonna meet Qiu Ping pass her prelim time table to photocopy..
then meeting Yiya at her house lo.. gonna do some revision..
might be meeting mel to pass her the time table as well..
ermmmm.. i forgot give Snailie Cre & Mervix the ba ku teh in potty morning call..
shall do that tomorrow man.. aha!.. (:
most likely heading back school tomorrow.. need to find teachers..
ermmm.. gonna contact jessica later.. hee.. need to plan for then tanning seesion.. muahaha!..
oh ya.. gonna ask her out to study ACCOUTS!.. *bleahs*
meeting ameer brather for studying session too.. *laughs*
he arhs.. tt time ask me dont drop accounts, then he dropped already!..
his sis told him to concentrated on his Geography mahs..
alrites.. overall, ameer brather has changed!.. he became sensible & more hard working than before..
he's really really hard working la.. *thumbs up*

last of all, peeps, do study hard!.. *smiles*
especially those taking their N level soon arhs.. all the best!.. (:
ermmm.. O level takers, study hard hard too!.. Prelims nearing.. our O's nearing too..
i wish all of u lucks in everything u do!..

`berls (:

hee..

2005-09-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

2nd sept 2005 + 3rd sept 2005

went sch today.. hee..
then took prelim time table.. aha!..
opps.. forgot take for qiu ping..
aiyaya.. nvm.. think tml i meet ameer study..
then before tt i can meet qiu ping ask her photocopy.. *smiles*

hmmm.. performence today were nice.. (:
especailly AMEER ma BRATHER!.. aha!.. 'he can play guitar!..
oh ma god!.. love the way he play it.. it's so nice man!.. hee..
oh ya.. after school headed to town with jessica, mei kwan, shiks & izzah..
then met jia jia at marchie.. at ard 2pm.. then we shopped ard town.. (:
but izzah & shiks went home first.. after towning, went home..
then bath & changed.. suppose to go town again.. but in the end went jessica's house..

aha!.. dinner at west mall foodcourt.. ate carrot cake.. (:
it's nice.. hee.. anyways.. i think of snaile when i reached west mall..
aha!.. remembered everything.. the paths we walked before & all..
told Jessica abt it then i'm so excited.. lalala..
oh ya!.. we went to watch "one more chance" tt show..
i swore it's very nice & meaningful.. u will laugh ur head off.. aha!..
but some scene, u would keep tearing.. *smiles*

just need a laugh for the day to be complete..
actually wanna call yiya but in the end never..
cos tt show ended at ard 11.30pm.. thought yiya will be home..
but she's not.. cos just not cahtted with jesslin then she told me they did call ma hp but i din pick up.. *sighs*
not i din pick up or what.. ma phone not with me.. somemore ma phone not working.. ):
earlier have i know, i'll go with them.. then i ask jessica along too.. hee..

i swear Jessica is a good company than alot of pple out there..
she knows what kinda stuffs i like & all.. (:
enjoyed ma day with her.. *smiles*
she's really nice & sweet.. hee.. *thumbs up*

`berls

shakes head

2005-08-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. nopee nope.. not going hiking tomorrow.. ):
Jessica is not free at all.. *sighs*
she's going m'sia to shop!.. aha!..
i tried to find ma passport but cant.. i dunno where mum kept it..
or else, i'll definitely go with Jessica..

wellsss.. english prelim papers today.. *shakes head*
it's not good at all.. hate it.. it's difficult..
especially paper 2(comprehenion).. it's on about animals..
alrites.. paper started at abt 11.37am & i was stonning away till 12.30pm..
by tt time then i started doing the paper.. tt paper ended at 1.17pm..
which means.. i took 47 mins to finish the paper..
doubt i'll pass ma english prelim at all..

i know i cant.. cos i'm too tired.. i cant think of anything..
ma mind just went blank like tt.. *sighs*
aha!.. anyways, took photos with friends.. (:
snapping here & there.. blah blah blah..
snapped some photos of ma friends too.. hee..
i took photos with MIGUEL!.. he's a handsome dude..
he's nice to be ard with.. aha!.. (:

ermmm.. after paper ended, Jia Jia, Qiu Ping & me went home to take our CCA points tt paper.. (:
Jia Jia's mum drove us home.. much appreciated.. hee..
reached school at abt 2pm.. hee.. (:
then put our bags at the study area & headed for lunch after tt..
oh ya.. then we took photo with Mrs Koor as well..
did chat with her for quite some time as well..
she's really a nice teacher & a nice mother.. (:

anyways.. i'm planning to make a teacher's day card for Mrs Koor.. aha!..
she's the nicest teacher i ever met.. she's caring towards her students too..

ma aries girl so funny.. hee..
ohhh.. she's really cute.. she's a dog lover..
her son is damn cute.. aha!.. cute mummy of cos got cute son.. (x

`berls

wat ma b/d means..

2005-08-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: August 6

A birthday on the 6th of the month adds a tone of responsibility, helpfulness, and understanding to your natural inclinations.

Those born on the sixth are more apt to be open and honest with everyone, and more caring about family and friends, too.

This is a number associated with responsibility and caring - this birthday lends a degree of concern for others.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

school today is so boring.. aha!..

nothing much thou.. (:

thursday will be going hiking with friends..

ermmm.. friday out for movies in town as well..

hee.. been so long since i go for movies with friends!..

oh well.. after sch, stayed back awhile to study..

in the end headed home then went to Qiu Ping's hse to study..

with Moses as well.. hee.. (:

ermmm.. was talking & talking & talking..

was like saying, "no matter what happened, i'm one who bear grudges.".

it's just me.. i'm just like tt..

who likes it when one is being accused of, backstab of & stuffs when one is so nice to u & all?..

i've learnt alot throughout these 4 yrs..

i've been thru alot as well..

friendship, relationships stuffs..

well.. hopefully.. i'll just take a step at a time.. (:

`berls

fucker..

2005-08-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

was late for school & i'm suspended.. *gosh*
anyways, snailie cre is really lazy.. aha!.. (x
even ti yang xia dao pi gu, she still sleeping..
later her pi gu kanna burnt.. (:
oppsss..

hmmm.. Adi was suspended as well.. hee..
then i taught him math.. aha!.. he's funny..
he asked why i liked him last time..
i'm like so pai seh to say out la..
alrites.. i admit i'm abit siao today.. aha!..
lalalala..

after sch went with shiks & ryann..
then went fagging & lunch at KFC.. (:
blah blah blah.. took photos at shiks hse..
hmmm.. then we chatted.. blah blah blah..
went home at ard 7.40pm..

hmmm.. curry vegetables with rice, so nice!.. (:
then after tt ate some longans.. aha!..
drank alot of water just now.. hee..

izzit a lie or nots.. u guys know it well..
where is ur conscience?.. go search it man..

`berls

sighs..

2005-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

why are u doing all these.. out of no reasons..
have u ever put urself into ma shoes?..
have u ever consider ma feelings at all?..

perhaps, i dunno what's happening to u these few weeks..
i admit we're drifting apart, really far & stuffs..
but the blog tt i've created only for us.. i put in so much effort..
and yet u said tt i could delete tt blog & change the blog passowrd..
it's hurting, very hurting.. do u understand?..
have u already forgotten the conversations & everything we shared?..

i've been neglecting u as i'm busy.. u're busy with ur sch assignments as well..
out of the blue.. when i saw tt entry u wrote in our blog..
i'm so shocked.. i dunno what to say.. i dunno what to do..
it really pains ma heart when i saw tt entry!..

i'm tired as well.. u're not the only one whom is tired abt alot of things..
i'm tired of alot of things as well.. but do we have a choice?..
we dont.. cos life still goes on no matter what happens..
all of us, go thru all stages of life.. good or bad..
it depends on how u gonna face it & overcome it..

do u get what i mean?.. i wont be deleting our blog..
i wont be changing the password as well..
cos i will be waiting.. waiting for u to start an entry again..
no matter if u're gonna be MIA or whatever.. no way i gonna give up on u..
i dun wanna lost a friend just like tt without knowing what really happened to her..

maybe i'm not important to u as a friend but u're important to me..
cos u're there for me when i'm down.. remember?..
i'll never forget those conversations & smses we shared..
be it jokes, serious conversations or whatever..
everything will still linger in ma mind more often than u expect..
*sighs* please ta care no matter what happen..
i hope u're reading this entry.. i wanna u to understand how i'm feeling now..

peeps, if u guys wanna find me, call me at 67624052, cos ma hp is spoil..
pls dun call me after 11.30pm.. i'll be sleeping..

`berls

gd sunday..

2005-08-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

went tanning with sis at sentosa this morning..
then went for lunch at Seah food court..
today is sunny day!.. hee.. (:
i love the beach & the sun.. *smiles*
hmmm.. i din get really tanned at all.. ):
sister's like sun burnt already.. aha!.. *bleahs*
she's like so damn bloody red now..

after lunch, i met daddy at Sim Lim Square..
sis went back to her work place to arrange some documents..
me & dad went to checked out for digital cam prices..
supposing shld get Casio digital cam but in the end we bought Panasonic one..
it's not bad.. hee..
oh ya.. sis met up with us at abt 5pm.. hmmm.. Jasmine tagged along too..
she's very cute i swear!.. *smiles*

alrites.. i forgot something.. today morning saw this bung..
she resembles Jake.. *sighs*
memories bought back somehow..
moreover, i'm on bus 963.. oh wells..

yesterday kinda have quarrel with mum..
then she checked ma wallet..
she started asking, "what are all these photos for?"
yesh, i admit, Jake's photos are still in ma wallet..
i never take them out at all..
hmmm.. i shouted, "it's the past, stop raking abt it.".
i dunno why but it's hurting & i cried..

been to town these few days..
hee.. fri, sat & sun.. went town.. aha!..
was tired i swear..

anyways.. i think kids are damn cute..
they're so lovely.. they bring joy to ur life..
but when they started screaming & stuffs, i cant take it at all..
hmmm.. wells.. i wanna have babies in the future.. (:

oppsss.. before i left out something!..
HAPPY 7th MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO LANCE & ADEL!..
ma beloved bee sis-in-law & honey sis.. (:

`berls

ermmm..

2005-08-27T11:50:00.000+08:00

went to sch!.. aha!.. i'm a good girl.. was nearly late for school..
oh wells.. didnt sleep well these few days at all.. ):

alrites.. let see.. hmmm.. gave snailie Cre morning call..
then when i reached school, at about 7.40am gave mervix morning call..
aha!.. scare bu ku teh in potty late for work..
she must be very tired as she slept late the night before.. (x

hmmm.. Sept is ard teh corner.. it means O's coming..
damn.. i'm still slacking somehow.. aha!..
arghs.. i dun have much motivation at all.. don't know why..
ermmm.. kinda feel uneasy everytime i didn't chat with Jovi online..
nvm.. she's coming over already.. 1st or 2nd week of Sept..
i'm looking forward to meeting up with her..
*nods nods* she know that i'm very excited.. opps.. (x

school was boring ytd.. gosh!.. but i did enjoyed account lesson.. (:
cos i was like so damn blur & get every workings mixed up..
keep "aguring" with Mrs Koor & i made a fool outta maself..
Mrs Koor was laughing the whole lesson.. after lesson, i asked why is she in sucha good mood..
guess what?!.. she said this, "i laugh because u're so cute.".
then i was like O_o"!
cute?.. shouldn't it be funny or stupid.. cos i really felt like a clown ytd..
ahhhhhh!.. nvm.. at least i did make pple laugh & all.. hee..

hmmm.. stayed back after school.. then went to meet Yiya at her house..
fagged there.. hmmm.. then help her choose clothes & iron her shirt.. hee..
i've never been so nice to any bung friends before.. she's the 1st one..
cos she's a good good buddy.. aha!.. she's always there to listen to me & always there to advise me..
oh wells, after everything, headed to ma house..
i bath & quickly changed & rush outta house.. hee..

but brother reached home just at the time i gonna leave..
oh wells.. then he started saying lotsa stupid things..
cant be bothered.. aha!.. (x
ohhh.. i wore a V-neck shirt & a long skirt.. hee..
it's been so long since i wore that man..

Met sis in town, headed to herden.. then went to NYDC to have our dinner..
gosh!.. both of us wanna tt "mushroom monster" but there's no stock of gaint mushrooms..
what the.. sighs.. nvm then.. hee.. ordered "mushroom & ham".. it's baked rice..
nice nice nice.. it's ma favourite!.. hee.. i love it!.. especially the mushroom, the cheese & ham..
okies.. that's stupid.. i love the whole thing!.. hee..

ermmm.. went for movie after that.. caught charlie & chocolate factory..
it was damn nice.. i swear.. (:
at least i did laugh ytd.. it's the only thing tt i really laugh ytd..

Snailie Cre so poor thing.. always work till so late..
hmmm.. suppose to meet up with her after movie but in the end never..
ha.. ermmm.. me & sis went to Alley Bar.. it was not bad thou..
sis ordered "baliey irish cream" & i ordered "peach schnapps"..
as we're chatting, Jason came over.. he's super rich..
his group of friends are rich too.. one if his friends's dad owned rouge..
that's why we could see them hanging out there..

sighs.. been feeling cold these few days.. don't know why either..
hmmm.. knowing Snailie was going for movie with her friends, then i didn't call her back when i'm lefting town..
Snailie Cre called me at 4 plus in the morning.. they just finished their movies..
alrites.. i sound really terrible.. cos was lying on the bed.. somemore i got sore throat..
blah blah blah.. conversations ended.. then i went back to sleep..

hmmm.. woke up this morning.. couldn't find ma phone at all..
i forgot where did i place it.. i used hse phone to call but it was switched off..
damn.. i should have charge ma phone earlier man.. *arghs*

heading to Sim Lim Square later i guess.. gonna look for Digital Cam..
i don't care.. daddy said he will get it this month for us.. he better keep his promises..
oh wells.. just now i called dad.. he told me he's working but i doubt so..
he sound so fierce when i called him.. somemore his surroundings damn quiet..
tt's why i'm having doubts in him.. i don;t believe that he's working..

aiya.. whatever it is.. as far as i'm concern, i shall not let small things affect me..
cos it's not worth it at all.. i don't deserve all these at all..
it's not ma promblem anyways, so what for get affected so easily?..
no matter what the future beholds, what happen in the future, it's all fated..
this is what i've got in my mind after doing so much thinkings these few nights..

i always give in to others, always place pple in front of me 1st.. but what did i get?..
Jia Jia is right.. what for always give in to others & place pple in front of urself..
it's cos of these 2 reasons, that's why i'm always affected by ma friends & all..
looks like i gonna learn to love myself abit more..

but it takes time for one to change.. hopefully i can change within this yr..
learn to love maself more & stuffs.. (:

hmmm.. i hate sore throat.. it sucks so much..
then must keep drinking water.. blah blah blah..
*shakes head* i hate to be treated as a paitent..

ohh ya!.. aha!.. hmmm.. she's getting prettier.. *smiles*
her hair is longer now.. woah!.. (:
it's happy to see her in sch thou.. at least once in a while.. hee..
i think i miss outta something.. hmmm.. Qiu Ping did ask me go town..
but i told her other day cos i'm meeting ma sister..
guess might be going over to her hse to study one of the days..
she said i'll be the first she will be inviting to.. *laughs*

however, what done cannot be undone.. i mean what happened during april..
i'm not forgiving & forgetting.. i'm petty in some ways, i admit..
but i don't like it when someone said things that are untrue abt u..
someone whom i trusted so much, someone who meant important to me, someone whom i actually diverted almost all the attention to & somehow neglect another buddy, someone whom i carried on ma back before, someone whom i bring to the doctor when she's sick.. but all these were the past..
we do talk & stuffs but to a certain extent.. normal friends now or shld i say, just classmates?.. ha..

friendship & relationship.. they're the same to me..
once there's any misunderstandings or quarrels, there will be a "hole" there..
it will never be mend back.. even if it's mend back..
there will still be an ugly scar there.. an ugly scar that will reminds u of what caused it to be..

`berls

heeee..

2005-08-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

THANKS MERVIX!.. hee..
LOVE U LOTS!.. aha!.. i'm over the moon!..
ma mummy & the ba ku teh in potty the best!.. (x

sorry for the trouble.. aha!.. shhh..
dun tell pple ma user & passy arhs.. *smiles*

`berls

lalala

2005-08-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

suppose to do paper 2 today but then i done paper 1 today..
gonna do paper 2 tml.. gosh.. wish me lucks man..
monday got test as well.. tomorrow got account test as well..
it's driving me nuts.. driving me to the wall..

hmmm.. life aint like last time anymore..
it cant be blamed.. too bad.. happy memories do have an ending..
oh wells.. who cares anyways?.. they seem so happy without me..
just the 2 of them will be happy enough i guess

it just hurt so freaking much when one is being accused, suspected & stuffs by her buddies..
why cant they understand me?.. i thought they already known me well enough..

still, i can crap with jessica they all thou i dun share ma problems with them..
sometimes perhaps it's better to keep it maself or to blog in ma private blog..
however, i have Yiya to be ma listener & to fag together with..
i dun expect so much in friendship anymore..
the more i put hopes & trust in friendships, the more i'll be getting hurt when bad things occured..
thanks mervix.. always there for me as well..
ma mummy mervix, the bu ku teh in potty..

ian feeling so damn down.. hmmm.. told her this, "life still goes on no matter what"
it's true what.. what for cos of anybody then u always sigh here & there?..
it just freaking affect ur own health.. lost concentration & stuffs..
but she told me this, "i'm not happy what for pretend to be happy"..

i'm spechless when she said this.. cos i'm not happy but still gonna fake out smiles & laughers..
i'm trying hard to be happy & not to be sad & get affected by things tt's happening..
i HATE it to pretend.. but if i dun pretend, pple will start questioning & it just SUCKS!..
it just rake up & reminds me of everything!.. *pissed*

some irritating asshole fucker still got the cheek to sms me..
stop being so irritating!.. it's all over, okies?!..
all THANKS to u!.. THANKS for the "wonderful" stories tt u've made..
THANKS for creating a pile of SHIT in front of me..
THANKS for everything.. THANKS SO MUCH ARHS!..
tt ma friendship with them turn so damn fucking SOUR..
-kiss ur arse-

`berls

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2005-08-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

luckily was not late for sch today..
done account test but leen helped me with it..
was really tired the whole day.. i nearly fell asleep..

social studies fun!.. history not so bad.. got lotsa notes man..
aha!.. was kinda happy today but still it wasn't how i felt deep down..
i threw away the breakfast i've made today..
i don't see any point keeping it since it's 3 shares..
spent recess with jiajia they all.. (:

hmmm.. after sch spent with them as well.. (x
lotsa things happened today in sch.. both good & bad..
oh wells.. i gonna keep maself busy man..
ma physics i pass!.. it's good!.. (x

every weekdays, gonna revise, exercise & use comp
fri night, perhaps will be in town with sis..
lotsa to chat abt.. really need to catch up..
sat will be going to grandaunt's place..
every sunday probably going tanning..

fucking damn life i'm having.. stupid fucking family i have..
i had enough!.. everything tt's happening & stuffs..
it just sucks.. what for get sad & hurt cos of all these?..
it just freaking affect me so damn much.. whatever..
friends?.. who are true & who's not true?..
no matter how strong a friendship can be & stuffs, it will still come to an end..
never to believe in anybody but urself..
even ur closest kin might even abuse ur trust & all.. what for!..

`berls

spechless

2005-08-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

it doesnt pay good to be kind i'm telling u guys..
tt kinda feeling hurts & sucks to the core when one start to have doubts in what u're saying..
this shows how strong the friendship is.. how much trust friends have in u..
how important ur friends see u as..
to think i'm just trying to help but all i get is shit in front of me..
one bloody fucker just made up stories.. all the things she said don't tally at all..

"go care & concern her more la"
"let go of her lo since u know so many bungs"

i mean what the hell are u trying to say.. u're just so fake!..
asked me to talk to them.. then u came up with this to them, "berline said u're san ba"
oh gosh.. what a good liar can you be.. i wont say these abt ma friend at all when she's always been there for me..
one last thing, i wont be stupid enough to "end" the friendship cos of a bung..
go & think abt it before u open ur mouth.. since u like to lied so much, why not u learn to be a good liar?..

u're pissing people off with ur words, actions & smses..
give others some space can u?.. u got nothing better to do..
but others are much more busy than u are..

for once i thought u've changed, become a understanding person..
but everything just come back to square.. ur same old thinkings..
i really wanna puke blood when i tried to lecture u & advise u..
hoping u will give ma friend a space of her own..
if i dont care abt her, what for should i even bother to advise & to lecture u?..
what i got now is a pile of shit in front of me all THANKS to u!..

i'm freaking pissed off with everything that are happening these few days..
who understands me anyways?.. how i feel & what i've gone through..
*arghs*

alrites.. didn't go school today.. met yiya at her hse..
then was sleeping.. was so damn tired.. *sighs*
aha!.. she was singing & recorded it down..
it was nice i swear.. her voice so nice & the song is nice too.. hee..
Yiya been there for me since morning.. thanks so much..
thou we may not always seems to be hanging out together..
but still, there's time for us to talk.. (:
then we went sch at about 1.40pm like that..
after that i went to King Ablert Park Mac to study..
all alone.. then Jonathan came with his girlfriend..
after that ian came over at around 5pm..
passed her back her disc & then she taught me math..
much appreciated.. or else i'll be struck at that damn question..

saw this Nanyang girl.. damn chio.. she got the looks, the figure & height..
7/10 points i'm giving her.. hee..

went home after studying.. actually, didn't really study..
was talking to ian.. aha!.. (x
hmmm.. met Yiya at Plaza mac lo.. then do math..
then we started talking.. hee..
after that went fagging with Ah chou, Qi Feng & Yiya.. (x

hmmm.. i'm left with 191 sticks before i quit smoking..
alrites.. ian scolded me.. cos of fagging stuffs.. *sighs*
oh wells.. i just go home not long..

was feeling really damn cold the whole day man.. *gosh*
i was caught in the rain as well but hopefully i'm not sick..
maybe being sick is a good thing cos i no need to go sch..
in fact, sleep at home the whole day.. hee..

mummy not working tomorrow.. boring la..
i miss Jo.. never see her online for long time.. aha!..
i wanna disturb her.. (x
wanna ask her play online games with me..
especially checkers.. hee!..

`berls

laughs

2005-08-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

oh wells.. let me think what happened..

20th aug 2005

-went over mj's place
-bought breakfast for them(mj, mel & cre)
-cre's sick, bought her fish porridge, med as well
-left at ard 4pm
-met sis at raffles (:
-went bugis street to shop
-saw this nice silky pants but dun have ma size!.. ):

21th aug 2005

-freaking pissed off by this guy
-tanning with sis(but rain, so nv tan)
-saw Kaden when we're on our way there
-headed to her work place after lunch
-met cre for dinner at Mayin with sis
-bought milk tea(hot one)
-after dinner went home
-cre's been good cos she smoke less le (x
-buddy said will call me back but nv

22th aug 2005

school today still alrights.. sucks actually.. fucking shit..
kanna caught for dunk by tt fat ass tan.. *arghs*
dunno what's wrong with mel.. we din talk at all..
not even a word.. black face since morning..
does the promblem lies on me or what.. whatever.. sick of thinking..
been so fucking tired.. din have enough sleep..
somebody pissing me off with smses & calls..
after sch met up with Yiya then went KAP mac study.. (:
only Yiya been there for me.. *smiles*
she's the buddy i love most.. hee..

one of ma TRUE friends been backstabbing me.. someone whom i thought is so damn real..
who can accept me for what i am.. whom i always think highly of.. whom i respect most..
what the hell is TRUE FRIENDS.. perhaps friends are all like tt..
being backstabbed, being betrayed were what i've gone thru..
"she rather lost to a finger than a cock, what can she get?.. she cant start a family at all"..
WOAH!.. all these words running thru ma mind.. fucking obviously i'm so damn pissed off..
i didn't say anything at all but to ignore it.. but at least can u consider how i'm feeling?..
saying things that are so ridiclious & so un true to the others..
but in front of me u're acting so gd, so nice.. saying it's okay & understand where i choose this path..
i'm SICK of ur acting.. ur words & all.. i admit i like girls.. izzit wrong?..
it's ma life.. not urs.. u cant do anything to stop me..
if u really depise crk8s then tell me so.. i dun mind losing a friend like u..
perhaps it's just a mistake to have trust u.. a mistake to have know u..

`berls pissed off

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2005-08-17T10:25:00.000+08:00

arghs.. cant get the colour font right.. so damn pissed..
so tired.. oh wells.. i so tired..

still gonna study & reconstruct the blog settings..

`berls

2005-08-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

for u sister (:

hee..

2005-08-15T16:20:00.000+08:00

15th aug 2005

went to meet up with buddies..
headed to bukit batok to meet Cre..
she made us breakfast.. (:
so nice of her arhs..
it's the 1st time i eat tomato(din cook one)..
hmmm.. she's a gd girl today..
cos she din take cab to work.. *thumbs up*
-THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENT, CRE-

was really crazy today.. aha!..
anyways.. enjoyed hanging out at mj's hse..
we made salad.. it's nice i SWEAR!..
hmmm.. gocery shooping together & stuffs.. *laughs*

dinner with buddies & Cre at cck coffeeshop..
Cre's funny.. she must be happy la..
cos mj & mel gave her a card & paper.. *smiles*

oh wells.. sometimes i wondering if i'm fierce.. ):
am i really fierce?.. peeps, give me comments pls.. (x
oh wells.. hmmm.. kinda so ma lu just now..
cos of what buddies wrote on ma arm.. *faints*
alrites.. buddies siao siao today..

I NEED TO RECONSTRUCT MA BLOG LAYOUT AS WELL..
IT WILL TAKE DAYS OR A WEEK.. (:

`berls

16th aug 2005

ma sis birthday!.. as well as Jo's.. hee..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to both of them..
best wishes!..

alrites.. i decorating birthday card for sis..
tomorrow still got sch.. aha!.. *faints*
yey!.. can see *her* le.. (x
but still, i'll slowly learn to move on arhs..
*her* sister shld know what i'm talking abt..
shall work on tt man..

*shakes head* it's getting late.. *ciao*

`berls