girl of ma dreams

Sunday, October 09, 2005
9:55:00 PM

7th Oct' 2005, Friday

sch still alrites.. hee.. ermmm.. wells.. left sch at ard 7pm..
headed home.. then bath & changed.. (:
wells.. then went out for movies with sis, Yiya, Jesslin & Pauline..
we watched "Into The Blue".. it's quite a nice show.. (:
ermmms.. actually sis wanna watch "skeleton key"..
but Pauline they all cant go home so early tt day..
after show went home.. reach home at abt 3am like tt.. so tired!..

before heading home.. quarreled with sis.. damn..
she's unreasonable to the max mans..
was really angry, pissed off & disappointed by her attitude..
why cant she understands me?.. shit!..
i've been givning in to her so many times..
she's so hard to please!.. not once did she give in to me..

8th Oct' 2005, Saturday

slept till 8am like tt.. hee..
Jesslin called me cos i told her give me morning call..
but i din answer at all.. because ma hp is in the living rm..
went to sch for sci lesson.. (:
Mrs Ooi is such a good teacher.. i like her lots man..
nono.. i mean her teachings la.. (:
went home after school.. was caught in rain..
am so cold mans.. ):
ermmms.. went out to study with Pat Eng, Yee Kit & Mj as well..
supposing shld go KAP but went to beauty mac.. cos KAP damn packed..

studied till ard 6.20pm then i left.. (:
met sis in town for "40 yrs old virgin" tt show..
bought the tickets already at midnight like tt at cine before watching "Into The Blue"..
wells.. "40 yrs old virgin" is so funny!.. it's a nice show lei!.. (:
ermmm.. it's the show just for ma day..
i need a laugh on that day mans.. so ya..

Jovi smsed me.. was shocked!.. hee.. she's funny la..
Jovi's 1st sms when i'm in cinema, "what are u doing now? shopping?"
ma reply, "sorry for late reply, i'm in town with ma sis, we're in the cinema now, catching "40 yrs old virgin".. it's really funny.. just the right show for ma day as i need a laugh.. hee.."
Jovi's 2nd sms, "its ok no prob. let me know if it's nice."
ma 2nd reply, "it's really nice.. i think u might wanna catch it with ur friends.. hee.. i hope u taken ur dinner.. (:"
Jovi's 3rd reply, "Yeah taken. Lately having gastric, flu & tummy ache. :-( think i'm not used to weather in sg. i get sick easily."
ma 3rd reply, "are u alrites?.. better ta lotsa care of urself.. go see doc soon, alrights?.. rest more ya?.. the show just ended.. (: anyways, where are u now?.."
waitied for Jovi's reply but in the end she din.. think she's too busy bahs.. ):

wells.. kinda quarrelled with sis again..
dunno la.. just cant stand her.. she's like not the usual her..
she tends to get easily angry over small things?..
it's like she had changed alot!.. tt sucks so much!.. *arghs*
i smsed with Jesslin.. till she told me to grab smt to eat then i eat..
i din really have the appetite at all.. was having grastic the whole day..
however still bearable.. *smiles*

reached home & bath.. then after tt i turned in.. (:
was waiting for Jesslin's reply.. really cant ta it le.. then i told her i'm turning in..
wells.. slept alone in the rm.. sis slept with mum..
bro slept in his own rm & dad slept in living rm..

9th Oct' 2005, Sunday

woke up at abt 10 plus in the morning.. but am still so tired..
read Jesslin's sms.. aha!.. she's funny.. tt silly girl..
the way she replied really make me put on a smile for the day..
she woke up damn early mans to study.. *good girl*
ermmm.. mum bought nasi lemak for me.. (:
then i ate it.. rest awhile & went out with sis & mum..
mum wanna go temple at bugis area mahs..
before tt we went to little india.. shopped ard mans..
tt's so many things.. it's nice!.. i like the sarees!.. (:
wees!.. getting bored of town.. aha!.. moreover, the things in little india are cheap!.. (:
they're nice too wors!.. *smiles*

hmmm.. oh ya!.. we went to mustafa as well!.. it's like woah!..
i was looking at lolipops & chocolates!.. hee..
yesh yesh!.. i am greedy la!.. lolipops & chocolates are just ma favourite!.. (:
ermmm.. walked all the way to temple!.. was like hell damn god!..
the weather is like killing me!.. *faints*
was so tired!.. *arghs*
we headed to OG after going temple.. mum wanna shop there..
then me & sis saw this shirt.. it's so our taste!.. (:
bought it then.. wees!.. so long since i bought a shirt!!.. (x
cos most of the time i spent ma money on foods la!..
tt describe ma big fat body!.. *sobs*

damn man!.. i gonna go on diet.. i need to go for prom night!..
dies dies.. i can put on weight as much as i wanna after prom night!..
ahaha!.. siao siao le la me.. (x
wees!.. ma day today is so fun!.. thou tiring la.. aha!..
ermmms.. talked abt Jesslin!.. with sis.. aha!.. SHHHH!..
not gonna blog here!.. hee.. lalala..
i had a dream last night!.. shouldn't blog here either..
aha!.. only sis knew abt it cos i told her!.. wells.. i told one of ma ex too!.. (:

gonna study later le.. as promised to Jesslin.. opps.. i din rest.. dies..
cos i'm using comp la.. aha!.. hopefully she wont yells at me!..
if she's gonna yells at me, i sure chase her ard with cane in ma hands.. aha!..
i'm her mama & she's ma daughter wors!.. (x
but dun think she will be so bad to yell at me bahs.. *winks*

last but not least.. i think tt it's really tiring to like someone..
studies is important than anything else now!..
i gonna remind maself tt mans.. hee.. (:
perhaps i dun like her already or izzit i'm just stopping maself to like her?..
wells.. i admit tt i would choose to be a bung if i'm born with a silver spoon..
too bad i'm not.. cos i prefer to give rather to receive..
i just like to show love & care to some pple only..
cos they're important in ma life.. (:

chatted with Gerald & Vincci online.. hee..
yesh yesh!.. going Ikea with Vincci after O's.. (:
we gonna see the furniture!.. wees!..
gonna go to tt playground together & buy chicken wings in Ikea!.. (:
am so happy.. cos i wanna get furniture for ma rm mans!.. lalala..
Gerald is so funny.. she's just so cute & silly..

`berls

missing the times

Thursday, October 06, 2005
5:15:00 PM

i'm so TIRED!.. arghs.. was nearly late for school mans.. ):
well luckily never la!.. ahaha!.. (x
ermmms.. i dunno what happened to me but i dun dare to look at her..
if i look at her, ma heart will be beating faster.. aiyaya..
wells.. made fun of Jesslin today!.. *laughs*
she made fun of me too.. *arghs*

after sch, got a talk on physics.. hee..
starting is still very okay & we did have fun..
but then half-way through, i fell asleep..
hee.. wells.. i gonna go back school later for night study.. ):
opps.. forgot!.. aha!.. i called mikko darling today again.. wees!..
accidently said this, "dear, wake up, it's 7.10am already.".
suppose to say darling but call her dear.. oh no.. *slaps*

ytd night chatted with calvin.. then she's really funny..
at first she was like so sian & moody till she recieved a call, she's so happy..
how i wish i can receive a call from someone i like but i doubt she will call me de la..
ermmms.. fell asleep after tt then calvin called again.. oh ya.. another friend called too..
i forgot what i told them & all sia.. i mean.. i'm half asleep & awake..
aha.. i'm so blur but i did rmb tt calvin laughed at me..

i wanna go for prom night!.. anybody going?.. aha!..
rey asked me & jessica to go sia.. hmmm.. rey is such a cute boy!.. (x
he's funny sia.. what a good boy.. he's like a bro to me mans.. aha!..

Pat.G ma brother so cute!.. aint she funny.. aha!.. (x
i told her abit of ma love life thingy.. hee..
wells.. Pat.G is naughty girl!.. shouldn't mention abt tt..
opps.. yesh & i did molest her!.. who ask her dun let me walk sia!..
lalala.. am abit crazy today la.. *boo*

if only i can turn back time.. i'll choose not to like anyone..
if only i could turn back time, i will choose ma friends wisely..
if only i could turn back time, i will study hard..

`berls

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
10:25:00 PM

went home after sch.. am so damn tired!.. ):
hmmm.. passed yiya chocolates!.. got her to pass to Jesslin & pauline as well..
wells.. today rain rain.. it's not so nice!.. a good weather to sleep.. hee..

ermmm.. i nearly fell asleep during lessons but i din..
been hearing so many things ard.. *laughs*
i aint gonna care cos i know tt those pple are just so "ah soh"..
they just love to said smt tt is not true & smear pple's reputation..
i wonder when will they behave like teenager & not a kid..
i pity their steads man.. they got such kinda gf whose mentally is only 8 yrs old.. ohhh.. poor things..

tomorrow got night study!.. yesh!.. love it mans.. hee..
wells.. i forgot smt!.. JESSICA came over ma hse to study abit after sch..
hee.. we walked home together.. yesh yesh ma hse!.. (:
then we talked non-stop.. *smiles*
ermmm.. we were laughing like hell in kitchen..
cos told her abt how i deal with ma bro..
yesh!.. tt chopper story & some stuffs too.. *winks*

ermmm.. dinner at mos burger with Jessica & sis too..
went NTUC with Jessica.. aha!.. it's freaking cold in NTUC!..
bought chocolates again.. not for maself but for ma friend.. (:
Jessica said i smell like alvin.. aha!.. (x
i know ma hair smell nice la!.. cos i bath before i left hse mahs.. so.. i so lame lame..
aft tt Jessica went home.. then me & sis met up with azreen..
cos she wanna meet up with sis.. i'm like so tired..
ma eyes on her.. arzeen just look so different..
wells.. she's real sexy & hot.. she's attractive..
tt smile, her eyes, her lips, her butt, just the whole of her.. *drools*

finally started to talk to ma sis.. i mean.. finally we started talking..
cos we din talk since saturday night cos of the digital cam thingy..
wells.. sis been crazy.. told me abt LY LY!.. it's all her LY LY stuffs!..
yesh.. LY is nice.. i can sense tt she's tt kinda career woman.. (:
sis type of girl, is definitely ma type as well..
but i still prefer someone whose characters are almost like mine..

sighs.. i think i've made a mistake in smsing..
shit.. now am so afraid tt she gonna give me tt cold shoulder again..
i know i can just see her as a friend.. but i still like her..
i do like her but not as much as before..
cos am too afraid to like her even more & afraid to lose her even as a friend..

i'm so so so.. i dunno.. i'm feeling really damn down.. *sighs*
however ma day is still alright.. (:
cos jessica is ard & we're laughing & laughing..
it's good to see pple ard u laugh, it's true & i agree to what jessica said!.. *cheers*

`berls

missing the times

Tuesday, October 04, 2005
11:46:00 PM

calvin morning call me & someone else!.. hee.. she knows it wells!..
calvin was like so happy.. i dunno what's wrong with her anyways.. (x
had a dreamt abt Snaile Cre anyways.. i cant rmb what dream izzit..
however i felt very good aft tt dream.. perhaps it's a nice dream i had.. haa!..
it's been long since i dream of Snaile Cre.. dunno why dream of her as well..
perhaps part of me, just miss her?.. aha!.. opps!..

morning call to mikko darling.. hee..
erm.. sch was still alrites.. (:
was tired thou but it's worth it la.. hee..
wells.. i bought some chocolates for friends.. hee..
passing them tomorrow lo.. *smiles*
wells.. next time then buy for jessica they all bahs.. (x

hmmm.. jessica din come sch today!.. so boring with her..
aha!.. i miss her today!.. oh wells.. ben & shah came to sch today as well..
i dunno what's the strange feeling i have when i see ben..
it's like.. mixed feeling?.. dunno why i felt this way either..
no, i dun like him.. i mean i dun have feelings for him..
peraps so long nv see him, then kinda shock?..
i really dunno..

wells.. history lesson today.. it's alright..
cos i can score better.. tt's what teacher told me..
hmmm.. gonna buck up on it mans.. am struggling like hell now..
gosh!.. am going to die soon!..
Mr chiu.. hee.. when nhe speaks, he's sexy..
tt voice so seductive.. tt mesmerising eyes just drew ma attention.. (x
night study is so fun.. am simply loving Ms Poh!..
she's the nicest teacher!.. she's very funny, lame & cute.. (x
wells.. think i'm abit berserk le la.. humph!..

i have had it enough.. i mean, i've already give in to u umpteen of times..
u're just one very unreasonable person.. who dun listen to pple's explainations..
u're so selfish cos u nv once consider pple's feelings at all & nv give a chance for explainations..
u expect pple to give in to u as if u're the princess.. u're so damn bossy as well!..
enough is enough.. if u aint gonna kick this bad habit, i wonder how u're going to get married..
whoever can put up with u, he/she, i gonna call him/her ma master..

"The way their tears make u want to change the world so tt it doesn't hurt her anymore.. Yet regardless if u love them, hate them, wish they would die or know tt u would die without them ... it matters not cos once in ur life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to u. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and u say a million things without trace of a sound, u know tt ur own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt. "

`berls

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Monday, October 03, 2005
8:00:00 PM

Ytd, Pauline & Jesslin both came over ma hse study!.. (:
wells.. Pauline abit siao siao de.. so funny..
hmmm.. am just happy ytd.. hee.. cos got abit crazy as well..
dad likes pauline & mum likes jesslin..
woah!.. if they're ma sisters, also very good arhs..
so harddworking.. aha!.. okies.. i thinking too much le la.. (x

anyways.. bought this pencil for Jesslin.. aha!..
the pencil like cute cute one, so i buy for her..
cos she good mahs.. with her ard sure can study hard de.. hee..
wells.. i gonna go buy sweets later.. i dun even know what sweets she likes..
hee.. cos i'm her mum.. must buy sweets sweets for her..

wells.. today was a long tiring day for me.. was like wanna fell asleep like tt lo.. aha!..
hmmm.. wells.. i guess tomorrow is a tiring day for me too.. ):
i'll be so busy like for weeks.. sighs..
O's are approaching & i'm still slacking abit la.. ):
ermmm.. during lessons, got smses coming in.. as well as calls.. aha!..
calvin & cake call me!.. cake is yiya's dad.. aha!.. (x
wells.. i think i'm starting to like Mr Keh?..
cos he taught me math.. he's good.. (:

wells.. crapped with friends in canteen during lunch break..
was like laughing like hell.. cos of tt topic we're talking abt..
it's abit disgusting but it's the laugh for the day..
Ms Poh came over.. then asked as abt night programme.. (:
she's nice.. i dunno.. i'll like her if she's really a crk8..
alrights.. this sounds so insane.. but i admire her lots lots!..
though she's skinny la.. she's fierce at times & she din smiles much..
overall, she's very funny & cute & LAME as well.. hee..

after sch took one round bus 184 home.. hee..
it's ma fav bus!.. then i sat at ma fav seat.. hee.. (:
was abit tired.. then keep thinking lotsa things.. sighs..
dunno what to do either.. i'm just like stuck in somewhere up there.. ):
oh!.. WEDNESDAY jessica might be coming ma hse!.. wooaH!.. aha!..
am so happy happy & happy!.. cos at least ma friend coming ma hse & we can revise together!..
wees!.. am tt happy girl now but there's some things troubling me.. ):

i wont be nice & i aint nice as before.. provoke me once or before..
i'm sorry then.. u gonna get a taste of how i felt last time then..
tt's me now.. so ya.. aha!..

i'll rmb all the times we spent together once so happily & close..
cos i nv wanna forget u.. i nv wanna to like someone else now..

`berls

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Sunday, October 02, 2005
8:17:00 PM

gosh.. i'm so so so lost now.. HUMPH!.. how?..

i'm so afraid tt i still like her..
i really dunno what to do..
i know we cant be more than friends..
but the feelings i had for her is getting stronger..
no matter how hard i try to stop maself from liking her..
i just cant do it at all!.. i really dunno what to do..
i'm really very lost right now.. *sighs*

wells.. i'm afraid tt i like another girl as well..
tt's better in characters.. i dunno.. i can click with this girl more than the girl i like..
but i'm afraid i'm taking her as a sub.. i'm afraid if i really din take her as a sub, pple will be gossiping behind..
it's like.. what the hell.. why am i feeling so lost now..
i really dunno what to do..
bascially, this girl got the kinda expectations i wanna in a r/s..

GOSH!.. someone KILL me PLEASE!.. *sighs*

i've been doing math for these 2 days!.. GOSH!..
am going bonkers soon!.. aha..
tml onwards i'm gonna be very busy..
ma sch starts at 7.30am till 5.30pm!.. what the hell..
i gonna be like studying in hell.. it's driving me nuts!..
i cant wait to get outta the sch..

`berls

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Friday, September 30, 2005
12:27:00 AM

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aha.. it's a very true thing abt me!.. (x

friends came over ma hse on wed & we're abit siao..

anyways.. am happy the way i am now..

hee.. i love them lots.. ma friends..

tml jesslin they all coming ma hse study..

but i pass jesslin ma hse keys & ask her come ma hse 1st..

cos i'll be in sch doing ma art.. sighs.. wells..

i'm almost dead.. i gonna sleep now le..

hee.. nites peeps!..

i shall update ma entry tml.. a more detailed one.. hee.. byesss (:

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